Your Lobster

Was chatting to Mimi about her future husband and the more she spoke, the more I realised they are so alike and suited to each other. Regardless of heartbreaks, divorces, and infidelity, perhaps one does find his/her lobster, as quoted by Phoebe. And it does help if you're not very picky.



Yours truly,
Sedeso

Should I allow my history to repeat itself?

And suddenly it hit me. I was used and abused and discarded when there was no need for me anymore.

1.She's been out of my life for 9 years, since she chose her friendship with Miss Piggy-Tan over me. Ignored me in public and never bothered contacting me. Pretended I never existed for 9 years. And all of a sudden she's back in my life, playing the best-friend role again, promising to help me get a job in her department, taking me out occasionally only if I helped her with her Lil mission. I am busy for 2 days only, due to an illness and she has ignored me ever since. I could be nice and call and offer her my help if she still needs it, but should I allow history to repeat itself?

2. She's been a friend I've met during a placement in 1997. She turned out to live nearby and we've been going out to Shopping malls an average of once every 2 months. I've been 2 her house about 4 or 5 times only. She expected me to act as a bridesmaid for her brother's wedding since she lacks many friends and it was also expected of me to entertain the guests. She only calls me when she feels like it and when she needs a boost of new gossip. I wouldn't call her normal for many reasons. She still expects me to be the entertainer at the drop of a hat. I could keep things the way they are, but I intend to rise to the top and will discard of her at a later time. Still, should I allow my history to repeat itself?

3. Reem only calls when she needs company. We used to be best friends, but she gave up on our friendship at the drop of a hat for a reason that real friends wouldn't give a toss about. She's done it twice already and asked for my company pretending everything is still the same, but after that she'd go back to ignoring me all over again. I need a huge favor from her, but I could also ignore her the next time she calls and hope to find my helping hand elsewhere. Should I allow my history to repeat itself?

I wish I had the strength to ignore Reem the way I've ignored others and totally erased her from my life. Perhaps then I'll get some of my dignity back.

People use and abuse each other and I am so fed up with being sincere to everyone. The good friends, the ones who deserve it, I intend to remain true to. But these others, my intention is to discard of them once I get to where I want to be. Yes, it is selfish but in this day and age, one must remain cunning and evil to get to places.

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

My Style I

What would I call my style? What make's people think: Aha, that's so her? The closest description I got to was one word summed up by Josephine: ECCLECTIC! So am I?
Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Small Dilemma

What to do when there's a guy who adores you, and would do anything for you, and would try his best to make you happy, yet you see him as nothing more than an acquaintance, not even a close friend?

What is it about women? Why do they want to be with men who will not treat them right? Why are they not attracted to men, who adore them and will treat them right?

What is it about Bastards that is so attractive/addictive? Why won't women see the bad in these bastards?

I know one person can definetly answer this and it is Barbara De Angelis. Ever since I read her bestseller (Things about men every woman needs to know), I understood alot of her reasoning. Her writing style is very comforting and easy to understand. Her advice sinks in well. She helps women love themselves even more, and not settle for anything less than what they deserve.

Books that help you understand youself, behaviour and relationships are plenty. But, what we need are books that teach you how to follow this precious advice and turn it to your own benefit. Ofcourse this would mean that psychiatrists and psychologists would be out of business.

Tip: Treat a man like your shadow. Follow your shadow and it will run away and so will a man.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

48 Laws of Power

On our way to watching 'Five Fingers' (highly recommendable for it's mind playing strategies ), Bondiyah showed me the book she was reading (48 Laws of Powers). My first thought were: a typical read for Bondiyah, who wants to rise to even greater powers. I forgot about that title until 3 days later, during quick grocery-spree in Sainsburys. I was looking for interesting reads and I saw a concise edition of 48 Laws of Powers. I bought it for 1 reason only: Next time we'll have something to talk about and perhaps I can show-off and appear more intelligent than I really am. (Insert FFWD 2009: Sedeso, really?? Who were you kidding?? Making the same mistake of molding my lifestyle for an hombre all over again)

The first rule seemed reasonable : Do Not Outshine Your Master.

Then I moved on to the second rule: Do Not Put Too Much Trust In Your Friends, Learn To Use Your Enemies. I was slightly taken aback by this rule but I got the reasoning behind it. Your friends know you. They have less to prove to you than an enemy and are more prone to becoming jealous. Past experience has taught me that living and working with friends shortens the friendship and that giving each other space is a good way to preserve it and strengthen it.

Then I reached rule number 3: Conceal Your Intentions. And Bang it hit me. That's one of my biggest weaknesses. I could've avoided so many problems had I concealed my intentions from others. Quote "By being unabashedly open, you make yourself so predictable and familiar that it is almost impossible to respect or fear you, and power will not accrue to a person who cannot inspire such emotions". So I better watch my tongue from now on. This won't be a smooth transaction from being an open to a more closed person, but I must concentrate on it to avoid any problems and inconveniences in the future.

I then skimmed through the titles in the index of the book and was appalled by a few. Even my Mira commented if you want to become an ASS read this book. But, in the inside cover, I found a note which explained this all: that it is amoral, cunning, and ruthless, and to get ahead in today's world, one must sell abit of his soul and learn these ways.

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Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Disappointment

Tis very rare nowadays to find someone who will keep his promise. For the past 2 years, I secretly hoped that Bondiyah will help me with my dilemma. I mean a promise is a promise. And when people you care about ask for help, you attempt to aid them with whatever means you can, not just because you promised, or the kindness of your hear, but because it makes you a bigger and better person in the long run.

Unfortunately, I am still hanging onto Bondiyah's words, latching to the life of them more like it, and although last week carried a disappointment, I remain hopeful that I will receive the help I need when the time will be right without having to beg for it. Either that or the Big Guy up there has other plans for me.

Spent a few days at a sleepover and it feels so weird coming back to this.





Till we meet again,
Sedeso