My therapist told me repetitively that if I only believed in myself a tad bit more then I'd be able to cross oceans and rivers with my inner abilities.
And now, I keep catching myself doing just that: under-estimating myself. Like take today for example during finance class, the terms sounded like jargon and I told the teacher it was like learning Chinese or even worst Sanskrit. I was on the verge of tears mostly because I tagged my 16yr old sibling along since she achieved an A in her economics class and her mind works in a logical way unlike me. She understood it all and explained it to me and I felt too small and slightly stupid. I even considered not taking these exams until I remembered the fees I will be paying so convinced myself to give it a go at least.
But I have nothing to lose and I am obviously here, for a reason and I hope all that I am learning is to my benefit in the long term. I am good enough, and because I will somehow figure out a way to pass these exams.
And I got a little distracted of course and daydreamed a lot about Sexy Voice. Something tells me he's not the one and that he may be attached. But to stop myself from repeating previous mistakes, if it's meant to be it will be and he will pursue me not the other way around.
Right now, this would make me very happy
only if it were smothered on Sexy Voice.
A girl can dream, thank God for that.
Till we meet again,
Sedeso
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