Uft!

What a day! How much worst can it get?

First, there's the insecure boss who won't let me travel with the group for fear of the media loving me more.

Then there's the jealous, racist native who wishes she was me.

Then comes the idiot who acts like a woman.

Grow up, people. Let me be, let me live the way I want to.

Right now, I want to curl into bed with lots of junky food and Will & Grace reruns.

The last 3 were by Nicole Hollis.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Hacked

Visited Naddy at her workplace and chitchated over microwave popcorn.

"Due to security reasons your visa credit card is blocked and replaced, please contact your representative branch to collect your new card and pin within 2 working days".

Yep, Some moron has attempted to mess with my card. This is so not the right time for it especially that I have traffic fines to settle, insurances to renew and bookings to make.

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Hottie still has the hots for me, hahaha. It was the way he looked at me and asked me if I was okay and happy in my new position. I am sure he misses my presence around his office. I doubt anyone else prances around him all day acting all girly and cute. And let's not forget that I looked pretty darn good during the event.

They even did a modern style hip hop dance. They were uber adorable, 3an jadd!!!

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

Current Worries

To start this post, I will remind you of an extract from Grease singing: Tears on my pillow, pain in my heart caused by you......

Yesterday I took my ex-workmates to a nice cafe, the food was good, the weather was spectacular and the company was indispensable. At sunset, we went to pray in the library. And as soon as we finished, there were the usual mutters of May the Lord accept our prayers. Suddenly Z says By God's Grace, On judgment day, this earth will be witness that we prayed on it sincerely.  And just like this, my throat got constricted and my eyes swelled up. Imagine the intensity of the moment when a piece of land will stand in the final court of justice and serve witness in front of God to your sincerity and piety. Wow. Again, WOW. God, please forgive me for my little mishaps.

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I am so disappointed at the office politics that I will have to deal with. So it's faking it all the way. How can a measly Palestinian secretary have this much power over the CEO? I can't believe she can make or break me. I will fake it for a while but will see how long this situation will continue the way it is.

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What do I really really really want for now? To travel to London and hit the x-mas sales regardless of the financial crisis that's happening around the whole world. Really really really. Hope it works out well and I have tons of fun.

Loving those rings:

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

desirable at last

I got so much attention from the opposite sex today that I cannot help but be surprised and hope that I do not jinx this trend. It is so weird. What is going on?

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Work Issues

Note to myself: Must take better care of my locks.

What would you do if you found out that your direct line manager is threatened by you?

What would you do if you identified the mole in the office who is not wishing you well?

What if this mole was the only one able to influence your manager and control even the CEO like a puppet show on strings?

Now, how would you react?

1) Become dismissive, quiet, and wish that it all passes by.

2) Have a go at everyone and cause Hurricane in the office

3) Face boss diplomatically and explain my side. Be two-faced to the mole.

The third option seems the best of the 3 but remember that I find it hard to fake it. I don't get what more do they want? I am practically doing all the work? I don't want them to get all the credit for it. That's not fair. Not fair at all.

I hope only good comes out of this situation. Please God, only the best. I know you love me enough to want the best for me.

The weirdest thing is that I couldn't think of anyone to pour my heart out to at this time of the night. Would have been nice to have someone to be comforted by in such a situation. Really. It's at times like this that I have to bring out all my strength, and cope with it. But all I want to do is curl up in bed with some crisps, chocolate, and Pepsi. A shoulder to cry on would be a plus. Help me please, for I am merely a sensitive female created from the rib of Adam.


Till we meet again,
Sedeso

The Peacock theory

Considering my last 2 crushes, I've noticed that the ones I fall for tend to have symmetrical facial features.  This proves the peacock theory that the more symmetrical the features (like peacock feathers), the higher are the chances of mating. My face is not symmetrical but I've got the '7awar eyes' which are meant to be a sign of beauty. Does this mean my chances of mating are slimmer than the average Jane?

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My therapist thinks I'm definitely ready to fall in love. I believe that I still am weary of it all. Something inside me is still fearful of being judged by a man or looked down upon.

A recent outing:

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

poetry on eyes

Missed classes for the last 3 weeks because of work. I do feel somehow guilty considering that I have final exams in a week's time but I am positive things will go smoothly.

Yesterday's event went perfectly for me. I looked fabulous, according to Fifi. Even got a WOW at first glance from another colleague. My skills have improved and I've still got that 'magical tone' according to Mr. H.

Didn't get as many compliments as I expected but I am sure it was because they were all in awe. I always think I am wonderful and hope that everyone does too. [Insert FWD 2021: Child your ego needs to be humble lol]

Came across these poetic words.

العين نور الله في الإنسان والعين نافذة على الأكوان

نغفو فتنسدل الجفون لضمها نعسانة في ليلها النعسان

ونفيق في الصبح البهي لتحتوي كل الوجوه بقدرة الرحمن

سبحان من صاغ العيون قصيدة لا تنتهي تتلى بكل زمان

Overall, what an experience, what an event!

Coffee anyone?

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

Compassion

إرحموا من في الأرض يرحمكم من في السماء

There's an ad on mbc4 which I am loving. It's about treating your domestic help with respect.

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Was gobsmacked today when I found out that another one of my Eastern school friends married a foreigner for love. That makes 5 of them so far. 5 girls who gave up their national identity for love. I keep on telling my mother that I might one day follow in their steps but she won't have any of it. I am so jealous. They married out of choice, not because their options for eligible bachelors were dwindling away. But when the time comes, will I fight for what I believe in?

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Had a wonderful time with the Italian clients. My God they had such bubbly personalities. Drinks at a tacky restaurant followed by dinner and a cruise.

Life is truly wonderful and I hope it stays like this for a long long time.

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

Why do they die?

My latest mani.I wish Mr. Death didn't exist. I wish Mr. Death only took away awful people, those who live to hurt others. Not good, honourable people who scarifice, give and spend their lives helping others and only consider their own needs last.

I meet wonderful people all the time. I hear of inspirational people whose humanitarian work brings me to the brink of tears and feel sorrowful when one of them dies. I shouldn't be thinking this, but I tend to think: what a waste and why was he/she taken?

Mom says the biggest gift God has given us is the ability to forget our pain. And I somehow agree.

Life is beautiful, truly beautiful and there is so much to do and learn on this earth. Living 70 odd years is no way near enough.

Death makes me feel so blue. I just want people to live happily forever, just like the fairytales.
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Quotes of the Day:

" Time is how you spend your love"

&

"Most of the cruelty in the world is just misplaced energy."

Having dinner solo at Nandos.

Till we meet again, 

Sedeso

Narcissism

Que Sera Sera

Whatever will be will be,

The Future's not ours to see

Que Sera Sera

I am so full of myself that I think every man who crosses my path is bound to fall for me. Actually, not just any man but any person, be it male, female, or child. And then I get disappointed when they don't show such emotions and question what is wrong with me.

Yes I am a narcissist and I have admitted to it before and even if this is majorly wrong I don't see it yet. That's just the way it is ( I am sure someone else sang this line)

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This morning, I woke up with a sudden urge for more junk food. Lately, the stress of work and studies has driven me to neglect working out.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Sorry seems to be the hardest word....

I am soooooooooooo sorry. Pleased forgive me Mr. Fuad and his wife.

Dear God,

Please remind me to always remain humble to people regardless of what position I ever hold.

I snapped at the poor man simply coz I've been feeling edgy lately. I had no right and I feel so guilty about it. Too Guilty and ashamed.

Come on sweetie, you're alot more well-behaved than this.
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I am so stressed out. It's the last week of Phase I of this project and I've got 2 huge assignments due at the same time.

Dear God,

Please give me the strength to withstand the pressure and the intelligence to do really well too.

I am craving some naan.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

And yes, my title is from an Elton John song.

The dream

Recently:Woke up crying with a heavy pang in my heart. It was a sorrowful dream where my grandmama passed away and my grandpapa was crying his heart out. I continued crying until I fell back into my deep sleep. And in the morning, I cried my heart out just dreading when such a day may come.

Until mama calmed me down by reminding me that death in a dream means the person will live a long and graceful life and tears indicate an upcoming happy event.

My grandparents practically brought me up and I am attached as much to them as I am to my parents. May God let them live a long and gracefully.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso