What Women Want

What this woman wants is compiled in a long list of goals that is updated every new year.

What this woman wants has been put into a vision board that is prepared every new year eve.

What this woman wants is a mix of materialistic items, career milestones, health, wealth and a devoted and doting husband for life.

I was hesitant to share my wants but hey, what's the worst that could happen? Being labelled as materialistic?  That's not so bad.

I want:

-new car

-driver

-Goyard Anju PM handbag

-new designer work tote

-higher pay and title

-Bottega clutch

-Chanel flats

-Gucci Flats

-new designer wallet

-to lose 6kgs body weight in 8 weeks

-heal the broken parts of my heart

-a little more flexibility

-to become certified

-an international award

................ Hold on a second.  As I was writing down the list of wants, I was actually cringing.  I was thinking to myself: "if anyone reads this blog post, they will automatically assume I'm superficial and materialistic based on the content of the list".  I know that I am so much more than that.  I have so much more depth and soul to me.  But, why are we programmed to be ashamed of expressing what we want?  Why are we constantly worried about how others will view us?  Do any of us truly not care?  Is this even possible?

Or is it just me?

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

I'm Back

 I am back.

Nearly a decade later, married, with 3 children, 40 years old, starting a new job in another industry.  

I'm struggling in a sexless marriage, trying to keep things together for the sake of my image. If this marriage breaks down then I will consider myself a failure.  Others will consider me a failure too.  But I won't allow it.  I won't allow others to ever look down on me again.

I finally won in life.  The poor nerd, disliked by many, having made too many enemies over the years. 

The decision to come back was simple.  I needed to heal and evolve through blogging.  I've come a long way, and even though I'm going through some struggles.  I've done pretty well for myself.

I accomplished the major milestones: love, marriage, kids.  Next, I will focus on career development and achievements.

Till I blog again,

Sedeso