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______________________________I usually see myself as a good person, and most people agree with this opinion. But at times, the devil within me shines and takes over.
I have a very competitive streak about me, and you shouldn't be surprised since you've seen my personality disorder, the narcissist.
But what bothers me so much is the little devil that lurks within me and pops out from time to time, causing my potential 7 sins to come into action. Sometimes I get violent and punch. Other times I get jealous and steal her stuff only to damage it and cut it to little bits before. And a few times I lie major big lies, like pretending I have a terminal disease. What else,... oh yeah
Recently, I got happy that my workmates' mother passed away. I felt threatened at work from not being the most popular one and wished ill on the new recruits.
Despite being normal most of the time, why is it that sometimes I feel so evil, wishing destruction and badness upon everyone who annoys me? Where do these feelings come from? Was there an evil seed planted in me? Or does everyone have this fury in them?
And shortly after those evil outbursts, I sometimes end up feeling so guilty for days and crying about it, remaining shocked and not believing that these actions, thoughts, and feelings of pure evil came out of me.
Has anyone of you been through this?
Please advise my tormented soul.
Till we meet again,
Sedeso
I have a very competitive streak about me, and you shouldn't be surprised since you've seen my personality disorder, the narcissist.
But what bothers me so much is the little devil that lurks within me and pops out from time to time, causing my potential 7 sins to come into action. Sometimes I get violent and punch. Other times I get jealous and steal her stuff only to damage it and cut it to little bits before. And a few times I lie major big lies, like pretending I have a terminal disease. What else,... oh yeah
Recently, I got happy that my workmates' mother passed away. I felt threatened at work from not being the most popular one and wished ill on the new recruits.
Despite being normal most of the time, why is it that sometimes I feel so evil, wishing destruction and badness upon everyone who annoys me? Where do these feelings come from? Was there an evil seed planted in me? Or does everyone have this fury in them?
And shortly after those evil outbursts, I sometimes end up feeling so guilty for days and crying about it, remaining shocked and not believing that these actions, thoughts, and feelings of pure evil came out of me.
Has anyone of you been through this?
Please advise my tormented soul.
Till we meet again,
Sedeso
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