Its Saturday...

I've done nothing yesterday but eat and play games online. I enjoy games like traveler's IQ since it causes the dormant side of my brain to start working. That's a norm on Fridays, pig out and do nothing. Not a waste but a change. And every Saturday, like today, although I wake up late, I spend the rest of the day studying.

So Thursday night I get a phone call from Khidiya asking me to work on Friday. No way Jose. I may have gone before, but now I realize they do not deserve my devotion. Plus, I've had a long week and I need time away from them.

Another thing I noticed is that that Palestinian cow may be saving copies of my emails to use as references, considering how much better my skills are. Effft, must be careful not to share anything with them.

And btw, I haven't exercised in 2 months, can you believe it?

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Serves her right...

Gorgeous innit?
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A little triumph at last but hopefully not the final one.

It's a good quality to have that of being level-headed and well-grounded. It's great to realize one's worth. But it's even a bigger asset to remain humble throughout.

Palestinian cow seems to have forgotten that she was a secretary. When asked by moi to stand at the exhibition stall she refused, insisting she was above that and that I shouldn't have said yes if I wasn't willing.

I didn't play it perfectly but at least she was forced to go and stand in the stall. Serves her right for thinking too much of herself.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

The long way back home...

When it come to managing my finances, I still need constant reminders and helping hands. I remember it was during my last 6 months in London I have overdone the shopping as per usual. I had less than 5 GBP in my account and my travel card had already expired. It was 2 days till monthly allowance and there was no way I was going to ask mom for any moola. No way at all especially that I spent the last lot she sent me in Selfridges.

I had a few coins in my purse so decided to take a bus ride home. I used up those last coins. Everything should have been fine, except that I took the wrong bus that took me all the way to South London, way below the river Thames. As soon as I realized it I got off the bus to locate where I was. I was far.

So I walked the whole way back. It took me nearly 2 hours. But I got back home, safely, with my intuition. I remember walking really fast. I remember how it started getting dark. I remember not being able to feel my legs and the only thing that kept me going is the thought of my warm flat and the home-cooked meal that I was going to prepare.

Why on earth I remembered this from my past? I know not. Or perhaps it's to remind me that I'm a survivor.

I know I need a break from those people at work. They threw the conference in my face and want me to look after it. What about my other chores? I know I will manage somehow. How much longer will I resist?

Till We meet again,
Sedeso

Work update

Updates from the job front:

I keep going over in my head of how I intend to break the news to my current boss. I do not wish to remain part of her team. I believe working with her is futile and a waste of my time. I could be elsewhere, learning more and being allowed more responsibilities.

What do I really really really want today? An inspirational leader to work with.

Work tip of the day:

Never tell someone of a higher rank what to do. Always "suggest" it.

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

Words of Wisdom: for me and my future children

بني

إياك أن تتكلم في الأشياء وفي الناس .. إلا بعد أن تتأكد من صحة المصدر

وإذا جاءك أحد بنبأ فتبين قبل أن تتهور

وإياك والشائعة.. لا تصدق كل ما يقال ولا نصف ما تبصر

وإذا ابتلاك الله بعدو .. قاومه بالإحسان إليه ... ادفع بالتي هي أحسن

أقسم بالله.. أن العداوة تنقلب حباً .. تصور

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* إذا أردت أن تكتشف صديقاً .. سافر معه .. ففي السفر .. ينكشف الإنسان .. يذوب المظهر

وينكشف المخبر

ولماذا سمي السفر سفراً ؟؟؟إلا لأنه عن الأخلاق والطبائع يسفر

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وإذا هاجمك الناس وأنت على حق .. أو قذعوك بالنقد.. فافرح

إنهم يقولون لك .. أنت ناجح ومؤثر .. فالكلب الميت.. لا يُركل! ولا يُرمى إلا الشجر المثمر

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بني: عندما تنتقد أحداً .. فبعين النحل تعود أن تبصر

ولا تنظر للناس بعين ذباب .. فتقع على ماهو مستقذر

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نم باكراً يابني .. فالبركة في الرزق صباحاً .. وأخاف أن يفوتك رزق الرحمن .. لأنك.. تسهر

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وسأحكي لك قصه المعزة والذئب حتى لا تأمن من يمكر

وحينما يثق بك أحد فإياك ثم إياك أن تغدر

سأذهب بك لعرين الأسد .. وسأعلمك أن الأسد لم يصبح ملكاً للغابة لأنه يزأر

ولكن لأنه .. عزيز النفس ! لا يقع على فريسة غيره ! مهما كان جائعاً .. يتضور

لا تسرق جهد غيرك .. فتتجور

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سأذهب بك للحرباء .. حتى تشاهد بنفسك حيلتها ! فهي تلون جلدها بلون المكان

.. لتعلم أن في البشر مثلها نسخ ... تتكرر

! وأن هناك منافقين .. وهناك أناس بكل لباس تتدثر ! وبدعوى الخير .. تتستر

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تعود يا بني .. أن تشكر .. اشكر الله! يكفي أنك تمشي .. وتسمع .. وتبصر !

أشكر الله وأشكر الناس .. فالله يزيد الشاكرين ! والناس تحب الشخص الذي عندما تبذل له .. يقدر

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اكتشفت يا بني .. أن أعظم فضيلة في الحياة.. الصدق! وأن الكذب وإن نجى .. فالصدق أخلق ! بمن كان مثلك

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بني.. وفر لنفسك بديلاً لكل شيء .. استعد لأي أمر

حتى لا تتوسل لنذل .. يذل ويحقر

واستفد من كل الفرص .. لأن الفرص التي تأتي الآن .. قد لا تتكرر

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لا تتشكى ولا تتذمر ..

أريدك متفائلاً .. مقبلاً على الحياة.. اهرب من اليائسين والمتشائمين ! وإياك أن تجلس مع رجل يتطير

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لا تتشمت ولا تفرح بمصيبة غيرك

و إياك أن تسخر من شكل أحد.. فالمرء لم يخلق نفسه .. ففي سخريتك .. أنت في الحقيقة تسخر!

من صنع الذي أبدع وخلق وصور

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لا تفضح عيوب الناس .. فيفضحك الله في دارك .. فالله الستير .. يحب من يستر

ولا تظلم أحداً .. وإذا دعتك قدرتك على ظلم الناس .. فتذكر أن الله هو الأقدر

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* وإذا شعرت بالقسوة يوماً .. فامسح على رأس يتيم .. ولسوف تدهش .. كيف للمسح أن يمسح القسوة من القلب

.. فيتفطر

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لا تجادل .. في الجدل .. كلا الطرفين يخسر

فإذا انهزمنا فقد خسرنا كبرياءنا نحن ! وإذا فزنا فلقد خسرنا ... الشخص الآخر .. لقد انهزمنا كلنا .. الذي انتصر .. والذي ظن أنه لم يُنصر

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لا تكن أحادي الرأي .. فمن الجميل أن تؤثر وتتاثر

لكن إياك أن تذوب في رأي الآخرين ... وإذا شعرت بأن رأيك .. مع الحق .. فاثبت عليه ولا تتأثر

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تستطيع يا بني أن تغير قناعات الناس ... وأن تستحوذ على قلوب الناس وهي لا تشعر! ليس بالسحر ولا بالشعوذة .. فبابتسامتك .. وعذوبة لفظك.. تستطيع بهما أن تسحر

ابتسم ... فسبحان من جعل الابتسامة في ديننا.. (عبادة) وعليها نؤجر

في الصين.. إن لم تبتسم لن يسمحوا لك أن تفتح متجر

إن لم تجد من يبتسم لك .. ابتسم له أنت ! فإذا كان ثغرك بالبسمة يفتر .. بسرعة .. تتفتح لك القلوب لتعبر!!

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وحينما يقع في قلب الناس نحوك شك .. دافع عن نفسك .. وضح .. برر! لا تكن فضولياً تدس أنفك في كل أمر

.. تقف مع من وقف إذا الجمهور تجمهر !! بني.. ترفع عن هذا .. إنه يسوءني هذا المنظر

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* لا تحزن يابني على مافي الحياة ! فما خلقنا فيها إلا لنمتحن ونبتلى .. حتى يرانا الله .. هل نصبر ؟؟؟لذلك ....هون عليك ...ولا تتكدر ! وتأكد بأن الفرج قريب.. فإذا اشتد سواد السحب .. فعما قليل ستمطر

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* لا تبك على الماضي .. فيكفي أنه مضى .. فمن العبث أن نمسك نشارة الخشب .. وننشر أنظر للغد .. استعد .. شمّر كن عزيزاً .. وبنفسك افخر

فكما ترى نفسك سيراك الآخرون .. فإياك لنفسك يوماً أن تحقر

فأنت تكبر حينما تريد أن تكبر

.. وأنت فقط من يقرر أن يصغر

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وإذا أردت إصلاح الكون برمته .. سأقول لك ...لا... أرجوك!! لا نريد أن نفقد الشر

تخيل أن الكون من غير غشاشين ؟ومن غير كذابين

كيف سيعيش الشرفاء ؟؟؟ومن أين سنقتات ؟؟ وكيف سنكون نحن .. الأميز والأشهر!

Beautiful words. I should keep these as a reminder so as not to lose my morals.

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

Cakes or Ice creams

....... that is the question for the next 2 secs.

Dear Universe, I await that property that I would like to spend time and effort in furnishing. My property. Some inspiration for now, thank you bahrainidiva.

Kelly Hoppen and Domingo Magazine:





So what have I been up to lately?

It's been like an endurance race of how much I can withstand the baffoons I work with. True idiots who play childlike games of envy and tell-tale. The insecure boss who will consider any challenge as a personal threat and colleagues who work against the tide of legality, ethics, and good morals. These people transcend mere annoyance and dwell in the realm of truly diabolical.

Hmm, I wonder if there are books about how to deal with bad bosses.

Amazoned it and yes, there were plenty of hits.

But come thinking about it, every situation is different.

You cannot choose your family but you can choose your boss and your colleagues. Until I am able to make this decision and handle its consequences, I will have to occupy myself with studies and friends.

"God, Give me the strength to endure hypocrisy and injustice. Give me the wisdom to fight it. And lend me a hand to overcome this struggle victoriously."

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

PS: Will be attending a private screening of a traditional kid's show soon.

PPS: Another hottie on the scene. This one is cute, short, french-Lebanese and is good to work with.

I want...

Cute Baby Room:

Desperation has consumed me once again and I woke up crying for love. I've been patient enough in my opinion and too good lately. I want a man.

The possibility of ever finding a sincere love to marry, I may have doubted. BUT I never gave up hope. And I will not give up this hope anywhere in the near future.

Perhaps God is testing my patience, but for how much longer?

And right now, 2009, April onwards appears like a big question mark on a white sheet. I cannot for the life of me sense anything about the near coming future [insert FFWD May 2010: It is good that you cannot child because that's when your biggest love will come into your life].

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

"Quote"

we drench ourselves in the people that we are in love with all the time. We make our world about them and they do the same for us. Is that healthy? Is that natural? Biologically speaking, we are made to reproduce. Our bodies attract to hormones in the opposite sex (subconsciously) to make babies. But all the extra: the yearning to talk to them every day, the butterflies, the deep pit devotion . . . is it natural or societal constructed?
the reality tv shows to find love, the love movies, the love songs, and the love poetry all tell us what we're missing or how to feel. the Yoplait yogurt, special K, 24-hour fitness, weight watchers commercials imply that eating healthy will make you attractive, hence ...help you find love. Has the media taught us that love is the ultimate thing to strive for in life? maybe we hold on so tight to the people we are in love with because we know that they are hard to come by . Maybe we love so hard for the people we meet because they 'GET US' when no one else does.
when a girl tells a guy, "I love you, but more like a brother". She means, "Psh. I could never revolve my world around you. I could never talk to you all the time. I could never imagine us kissing or fawning for each other." So, maybe someone can answer my question: Is romantic love a natural occurrence OR something that has been hyped up by the culture around us? and if romantic love IS natural, why is it so different from other types (for example, the consequences of romantic love is heartbreak )?
The crazy part is: Even if we realized that romantic love isn't natural, we would never give up on it because of our yearning to meet that special someone?
 
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If I could turn back time

......a la Cher.

I'm attending a VIP wedding party tonight. I should be excited but I am so not bothered. This is why I am getting both my hair and make-up done at home.
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If only I were a few years younger, if only I were...then.....

I would have applied to attend that finishing summer school in Switzerland.

I would have joined this floating university http://www.thescholarship.com/academics/

I would have picked up another language, besides French and basic Spanish.

and I would have enjoyed my life more and worried about the future a lot less.
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Welcome baby Yaz to the world. I could give you 5 years from mine. Oh, just to be 22 again. Or even better, just to be 18 again!! __________________________

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Loewe

Not for the dress but for how fit she is.
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I started semester 2 at university.

Consumer Behaviour class has 11 girls and 7 boys.

Only 1 single boy.

I hope my Management class has some hot stuff.

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Some shoes should not be worn on soles and trot the dirty streets. They should be kept on high shelves.

Till we meet again, 

Sedeso

What if?

Spent this Friday at a 4 star hotel and I didn't like the place at all. Myself, bro and sis stayed in a 2 bedroom suite that looked more like an old-furnished flat although I will admit that it was beautifully located though.

What a view

The delicious 120g beef steak I had.

4. The master bedroom

5. The twin bedroom

6. The living room

We just chilled out alot. It was good to chill with my siblings somewhere other than home.  I hope things work out so that we can all live under one roof together, happily.

And as hard as it was to drag mother dearest out of her depression and the house, we took her out to dinner

The cuisine was gastronomy and my tuna starter did not taste good at all.

But my main course, the seafood risotto was delicious.

The side baby vegetables and potato.

The picturesque dessert mom ordered. The flower was edible.
My verdict: I would not recommend it.

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What if you won 1 millions dollars? How would you spend the moola? Too many things and for me, a mere million is nowhere enough. You do know that I tend to be a greedy person. But, if I was given this interest-free million, here is how I would spend it http://www.spendamillion.com/SeDeSo . So how would you spend yours?

Final Whisper: What if during 2009, I hold off on my extravagant lifestyle and save for that big investment?

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

Baskin Robbinz yummyyy!!

Yummy yummy yummyyyyy!!

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And it pays off to stand up for yourself every once in a while.

Tada!

I showed them who is boss.

And I will make sure they never cross my path again.

I will not let anyone else, play the same game again.

I don't have hidden agendas, neither do I play dirty. I am competitive yet honest, impatient yet compassionate.

Regardless of the positions I will hold, I hope to be an inspirational leader in all situations.

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

A Wanker

Why am I too kind to people?

Why do I treat those who mistreat me, well?

Why do I even bother with them?

From Ayesha Depala:
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Till we meet again,
Sedeso

PS: Khalid is a wanker.

Hate 'em

Loving the above:

I am so confused that I feel my insides are being torn into a million little pieces. I do not want to move with them.

So many people are telling me not to work with them. They all think my skills, abilities, and talents will be wasted on them.

I hate their guts. They are so corrupt. I am positive they're not the worst but they're bad enough.

I choose not to taint my soul. But for now, I need a stable enough atmosphere so that I can concentrate on my studies. Gosh, I'm dying to start the semester. 

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

The Price

Unbelievable.

I've been eyeing this bag for a while online. I anticipated we'd be getting it in the GCC in the winter and we did.

Now, this bag was retailed on net-a-porter for 729 GB.

Well, I found the exact bag at the mall today, and guess how much it was retailed at? Double the price!! Can you believe how we are being ripped off? 

Apparently, in the current sales, a lot of items are 60% off. 

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

A Reflection of the past year...

I made a list of resolutions without reflecting on whatever happened last year. True, I firmly support the phrase, let bygones be bygones, but reflecting slightly on the past year will give me a better feel of what I hope to achieve, what I can achieve, and what I only dream of achieving.

Jan: Spent my New Year's in Londres with my old pals and it was a great trip with lots of lovely shopping.

Feb: ------------------

March: ---------------

April: My Lebanon trip got canceled last minute. I was supposed to catch a connecting flight after coming back from B town trip, where we attended a celebration of a medical mind's patented genetic discovery. But as always the universe surprised me with something better and I had an amazing trip to Paris with Foz.

May:---------------------

June: --------------------

July: Took an introductory course to a post-grad degree and realized that I enjoy studying so much and that there are so many men out there who are worth it.

Aug: I started a master's degree in strategic marketing, a new era in my life. Also, my friends came to visit me from Londres and we had a brilliant time.

Sept: I moved to a temp job and realized that I have been in the wrong career so it became permanent I have to move.

Oct: I got offered 2 job options and opted for the administrative one.

Nov: I got promoted. I also started appearing more often in the media.

Dec: Started having problems with people at work and realized that this work conflict is something you cannot avoid.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Another blessing in disguise

The yummy breakfast I had with Mandy and Khalid, the idiot, who unknowingly blabbered my true feelings to God knows who.

Perhaps this is a test of my inner strength and durability.

Perhaps this is a blessing in disguise. (I hope. I hope, I hope it is).

So, thank you God, for the little perils that you throw in my direction.

Till we meet again

Sedeso

"Quote" "
strength is a blessing and a burden .
strength builds you up ,

but sometimes it makes you press your thumb on people .

it makes you stern in your presence ,

however, strength can also make you stubborn in your stance .

you stand for a lot & compromise little .

often misinterpreted as full of limit . boundary .
people are often afraid of strength and they pretend like they want to be more 'flexible' .but clay-type people will only be who they are until the air decides for them to dry . then they are simply stuck with the result, with no say so of their own . it's kind of like the 'Riddler' ride at six flags . you shift up and down when you get in your seat & when it locks . . . you're stuck .
it's foolish to assume the world will go 'easy' on you .


it's foolish to believe that one drop of adversity will give you a pass for the rest of life's tribulations .


true, blessings come everyday and so often, but a lot of the time . . . those blessings come disguised in a mask of pain and growth .
tough skin .

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I had a dream...

.... where I was attending an event by the beach, with tons of people and the invitees included my friend Najwa, my grandparents and the ruler. Najwa was supposed to MC but I sensed she wasn't ready, so I told her I'll take over. She didn't mind. Her speech was written by an older lady whom I felt wasn't confident with what she has prepared, because when I looked down and the notes she handed me, I saw that they were backward. It was all very glamorous, the purple-pink skies and the deep blue sea as the backdrop, the flickering candlelight from the round tables, the golden empire from behind, the high balcony with the beautifully laid-out feast, everything the eye would desire to taste, the scene was breathtaking. I don't remember what I wore. I stood infront of the crowd, turned each note over and read it out. I felt I was able to control the crowds and was doing well, until towards the end, when it seemed that the they didn't know how else to continue, and there were so many clippings, with underlined text but none of it made any sense...so I went back on stage after the last speaker, and went blank....I kept quiet until the ruler himself got bored and walked off to the banquet on the balcony. He went alone, and shortly everyone else got up. I should have elaborated with poetry. But I couldn't think. I, later on, went to check on my grandparents and even tasted some of their food. I remember how it tasted. This dream was so real, I could feel my presence there. I even remember what the weather was like.

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2 nights ago, I felt someone sitting by my feet. I should have been in deep sleep. I looked up and saw a male, that looked like a childhood friend of mine, sitting at the end of the bed, with his black locks sticking out of the shirt he was taking off. I drifted back to sleep. Suddenly I was held down, strong and still: my mouth, my neck, I couldn't break free. I couldn't even open my eyes. I resisted until I was left alone, and I let out a scream. I mentioned the names of God and my heart started pounding. It was him again: ElYathoom, the djin that visits you in your sleep when you forget to pray. He seems to have taken a liking to me since he's becoming a frequent visitor in my sleep. Why can't he go bother those drunken people who are non-believers?

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My world seems to be colliding with the supernatural more often and I don't mind that at all. Remember that I am a huge fan of Harry Potter, Charmed and The Ghost Whisperer and I am very keen to develop powers using my inner strength and durability.

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On the work-front, I am disliking the current situation very much. Palestinian cow thinks she can control the whole office and tell us off. She has no authority to do this. She hasn't seen anything from me yet. I don't play dirty, I do not lie and I do not have hidden agendas. But I will not tolerate any disrespect. What's the worst that could happen? I become idle at work? That would be absolutely fine. I'll study and read books until they move. Or even better, I'll just take time off and help out my french colleague. Brilliant!

I am 100% positive that they will try to keep me working for them, they know well enough that will lose a lot if they let go of me.

Socrates himself said: "Don't get mad, get even". Palestinian cow, I hope you taste your own medicine and I hope it is bitter.

I know I am meant to make a difference, regardless of how minor, and I'm very happy that I have already touched so many people's lives, but why do I keep having to deal with crap female bosses? Maybe I should move on to working for a male boss. Once again, I wonder what the future holds. I'll keep my fingers crossed.

Since 2009 will be a glamorous year for me, here are a few picks for today:
1. Oscar De La Renta
2. Missoni
3. Miu Miu
Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Happy New Year 2009

I've been considering this list for a very long time, as you may have noticed already. Seems like it will be longer than last years. I stuck to over half of 2008's resolutions and let us see how well I will do in 2009.


1. Fall in love and get married.
2. Continue my education and take a summer course.
3. Grow my hair long and take better care of it.
4. Exercise twice a week.
5. Take up a new activity, such as figure-skating, bailar or pottery.
6. Get promoted twice in 2009.
7. Double my salary somehow.
8. Continue reading, concentrating on the classics.
9. I will not allow anybody to disrespect me.
10. Travel atleast twice in 2009.
11. Work on strengthening my faith.
12. Go to a french-speaking country to study for a few weeks.
13. Discover the beauty of my country.
14. Work on my looks.
15. Eat healthier
16. Lessen caffeine consumption
17. Get a Rolex
18. Spend more time with my family especially the elders
19. Control my inner volcano
20. Become more forgiving.

But most importantly, 21. Learn to love myself with all my flaws.

I wonder what the universe has in store for me in 2009?

Till we meet again,
Sedeso