Asado

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Had a fake anniversary yesterday at Asado and there were a few pleasant surprises.

The card that the restaurant presented us with all the staff wishes for a long-lasting relationship.

The song that the head singer of the band and a back-up singer sang to us with a guitar by the candlelight. I swear I cringed from embarrassment.

The food was great. Actually, my steak was delicious and the lobster starter was divine. It was a perfect meal.

And the ambiance was the way I liked it. I enjoyed being there. I hope he did too.

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From Nizar Qabbani's poetry:

إختاري
إني خيَّرتُكِ فاختاري
ما بينَ الموتِ على صدري..
أو فوقَ دفاترِ أشعاري..
إختاري الحبَّ.. أو اللاحبَّ
فجُبنٌ ألا تختاري..
لا توجدُ منطقةٌ وسطى
ما بينَ الجنّةِ والنارِ..

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التحدّيات

أتحدّى..
من إلى عينيكِ، يا سيّدتي، قد سبقوني
يحملونَ الشمسَ في راحاتهمْ
وعقودَ الياسمينِ..
أتحدّى كلَّ من عاشترتِهمْ
من مجانينَ، ومفقودينَ في بحرِ الحنينِ
أن يحبّوكِ بأسلوبي، وطيشي، وجنوني..
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قولي أحبك

قولي "أحُبكَ" كي تزيدَ وسامتي
فبغيرِ حبّكِ لا أكـونُ جميـلا
قولي "أحبكَ" كي تصيرَ أصابعي
ذهباً... وتصبحَ جبهتي قنـديلا
قـولي "أحبكَ" كي يتمَّ تحـولي
فأصيرُ قمحاً... أو أصيرُ نخيـلا
الآنَ قوليهـا... ولا تتـردّدي
بعضُ الهوى لا يقبلُ التأجيـلا
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يدك

يـدُكِ التي حَطَّـتْ على كَتِفـي
كحَمَامَـةٍ .. نَزلَتْ لكي تَشـربْ
عنـدي تسـاوي ألـفَ مملَكَـةٍ
يـا ليتَـها تبقـى ولا تَذهَـبْ
تلكَ السَّـبيكَةُ.. كيـفَ أرفضُها؟
مَنْ يَرفضُ السُّكنى على كوكَبْ؟
لَهَـثَ الخـيالُ على ملاسَـتِها
وانهَارَ عندَ سـوارِها المُذْهَـبْ

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

PS: Have I mentioned that I am in love with this one?

Love you Baby

Love you, baby, bye<=== and I melted in my seat.

I walked around the room in circles in disbelief. Could I have heard it wrong? Is it possible? A confession of love, before the usual mutterings from my side which they always reply: me too? Mais c'est vrai. It might have been baby, bye. Naaaah, it was a definite love you.

I adore him.

And earlier on he told me to study hard because your success is my success. Knock on wood, a man whom I adore and who cares.

I love him more today than yesterday but not as much as tomorrow<>

Coveted items du jour:

Nicole's dress

These from Rachel Zoe

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

"Quote" Love is a complicated something that lets you walk on solid ground and then pulls you by the ankles when you least expect it. She is R U T H L E S S, love that is. She is a racially ambiguous nymph that lures you in with sweet songs of bliss and passion ... then snaps your body into two. Love is a bear trap that you see and frolic in any way. Love is ... pain painted in mascara. "Ünquote"

Baby Come Back

I went back to my therapy sessions, in time hopefully to save my current relationship, make it stronger and lasting.

I have a good feeling about this one.

I want this relationship to work.

God, be with me in this one.

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My love for Bottega is growing day by day.
Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Something deeper

I love him more and more each day.

I want him more and more each day.

To others, he may look so average, but I see him as wonderful. This one is definitely a keeper.

I will keep my fingers crossed and hope that he is faithful.

I'm not too fond of the restaurants he takes me to. They're all too common. But what I noticed is that I do not mind where we go as long as I am with him.

I know that I love him. And if I stay long enough with him and things go well, I will fall head over heels in Love with him. I hope this is the case. I hope he is the right person for me. He is decent, good, and funnily enough has all the qualities I ever wanted in a man.

Coveted item du jour: This Classic Gold Casio



Till we meet again,
Sedeso

A true prayer

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

I'm so excited....

Tonight's the tonight we're gonna make it happen
Tonight we'll put all other things aside

Get in this time and show me some affection

We're going for those pleasures in the night

I want to love you

feel you

wrap myself around you

I want to squeeze you

please you
I just can't get enough

And if you move real slow I'll let it go

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Yep, you got that right, I''m planning on having plenty of fun this weekend. And I will not wait till tomorrow.

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I brushed up on my looks and I hope I will deliver and satisfy.

I honestly cannot wait till I see my beloved.

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I am hoping that from now on, things will be okay. I told the lady that hooked us up that we were on a break. This should stop her from butting in. And this should allow me to enjoy being with this man and make my own decisions.

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Loving these interiors:

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

My beloved's poetry

I am in love with him, more now than ever before (I think).

عندي يقين إنك عن كل البشر غير

وإنك بعيني غير كل الحبايب 

وجه السعد طعم الفرح

وأول الخير

همس المسا

ريح المطروالهبايب

لو قلت أحبك

صار بالهرج تقصير

وإن قلت أعزك

صار فيها عجايب

This is my favorite 2 line SMS poetry. It was originally sent to me by Agent 009 and I held onto it because of what it meant. I always hoped that the next person who sent them to me really meant it but instead I got something better than a mere forward. I got words from the heart.

لك وحشة عيت تفارق عيوني.... وإن غبت كن الكون في غيبتك غاب

That was the only message I got thus far but it meant so much.

Who is this man? And what is the role he was meant to play? Was he sent to me because of my constant rantings and desperado prayers or is he simply the answer to all my prayers. I have no clue. And as much as I am in a hurry to know the answer, I think it would be wise to slow down, take a breather and enjoy his company. He is a good man. How good though? Only time will tell.

Today's 5 coveted bags du jour: Balenciaga, Burberry Prosum, LV, LV, and a BEAUTIFUL LV.

And my absolute favourite:
Till we meet again,

Sedeso

The Answer

I got my answer all right: Right now, I am not even thinking of marriage.

I will allow your minds to imagine how my heart broke into a million little pieces.

Till we meet again, 

Sedeso

PS: You will only understand how I feel if you've been through it. And I hope to God that you do not feel this way.

The Question

His family is coming back from their summer vacation in mid-august. He is spending the whole of Ramadhan here. He will leave for London perhaps at the end of September.

Sometime between August & September, I have to bring up that topic, the one I have avoided so far with the exception of a few jokes and hints of a future together.

The trick will be not to think about this until August and attempt my best to enjoy my stable relationship, something I have not had since August 009.

The thing is, I couldn't sleep last night because holy matrimony was on my mind. Will he pop the question? And when? I've reached a stage where intimacy can sometimes affect my behavior and this is the main reason I should be in a healthy, stable relationship.

Now that I vented this out, I will stop. Today is Friday. I have a paper and presentation due on Sunday so I must work my butt off.

And right now, I must wake up The One who shunned my attempt at a chat last night. 
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From Michael Jackson's Memorial.

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

PS: Dear God,

You know what's best for me. You know when things will happen and how. I beg of you, let there be a husband and children in my destiny. This has become a priority in my life right now. My biological clock is ticking, my needs remain unsatisfied and time is not standing still. Please, give me this small thing from the whole universe.

The Text Request

My bestest friend Mimi spoke to me today and decided that she will help me find a beau.

After we ended the conversation, she texted me and asked me what I am looking for in a man.

I texted her the following:

"Lookswise, NO skinny men, I like a neat beard, long nose, NOT fat but I do not mind a small belly (beard), clean-smelling man. I don't mind a smoker & white or tanned is 3adi. Personality-wise, I like a man who enjoys spoiling women, who will not stop me from work or hinder my ambition, caring, respectable & aham shay not judgemental & humble (will never think he is better than others)." [insert FFWD: May 2010: Doesn't your beau fit these descriptions?]

I think I may have lowered my expectations and standard a little. But that is absolutely fine because I need to have somebody in my life.

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Limited Edition Chopard Watches:

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

Lovers' Rift

Yesterday, I waited for my beau's telephone call until past midnight. When I didn't get a reply till 12:35am, I decided to give it a last try then got so pissed off and went to sleep. I woke up in the middle of the night and found his missed call but decided against calling.

This morning I called twice to wake him up but he didn't answer me.

I got so worried at his neglect. I expect a lot more attention. I expect to be loved and adored and showered with affection. I am of a different calibre. He knows it. He just needs to be reminded of it constantly.

So I called him at 10ish and had a 'quiet' go at him.

We spoke. I explained to him the importance of communication to me. We sorted it out.

He called me again at 3pm, a changed man.

Yahoo, I got my man back.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

PS: God, will he marry me and make me happy?

Prophecies or wishes

My dearest,

You know you love me.

You do appreciate me.

You do love my personality.

You always want to be with me.

You are definitely planning on marrying me.

Yours Truly,

Your beloved

PS: I want to be with you too and my love for you is greater than my love for this juicy burger.

Another surprise

I spoke to my current beau late last night, wished him a comfy sleep, and shut the phone. He was exhausted so I had to let him go. As soon as I shut the phone, I was overwhelmed by emotion and intense love and cried, only to be stopped by my mobile ringing once more.

I expected it to be Inti or Nawaz S, but to my surprise, it was Agent 009. Yes, Agent 009, the love that changed me and my life for the better. HIM, the main reason behind my decision to become a better person. To say I was surprised would be an underestimate.

He seems to always call either late at night or whilst working out at the gym. I don't mind, since we are no longer an item. What surprised me was that He saw the appreciation ceremony by the CEO. He even checked out my newspaper article when I texted over. He told me I'd lost weight and looked pretty. And offered me help in case I needed anything in my work or studies.

He told me how happy she was at my success. I sensed the pride in his voice. And this made me feel wonderful. I still love him, in a platonic way.

Dear God,

Who will my future Mr. be? The One? or someone new?

Loving these Desi looks, which I am sure will look great on me.

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

PS: Cannot wait to see my beloved and give him the gift.

PPS: I hope we get to travel together.

Son anniversaire

My baby is ill. I was hoping to meet with him tonight, converse by a candle-lit dinner, give him his gifts and perhaps, just perhaps he may pull out a solitaire at the end of the day and ask me to be his missus and bare his children. A girl can dream, right?

Unfortunately, my baby has fallen ill. Ironic, because just the day before, he mentioned to me how he had a sore throat and I told him immediately that its the summer flu. I asked him about how many days it takes him to recover and he said about a week. And this is exactly what is happening.

He's a good man. He has a different way of thinking, sometimes stubborn but not impossible to live with. 

I am yet to choose a place to dine.

Scary thought: he understands me too well.

His gifts so far:

1. Limited edition frangrance from Jo Malone, London and number 154.

2. A sweater from Carolina Herrera.

3. A leather credit card holder from Yves St Laurent.

And here's how I wrapped it. Cool innit?
Till we meet again,

Sedeso