Okay, so I need to express myself if only in a few lines otherwise I shall explode.
First things first: Bondiyah has become an even bigger-shot than what she was. I look back at the long-lost (best) friendship and the only thing on my mind is WHAT IF?
This is the worst kind of question to be tortured with. What if I acted differently? What if I kept better my then best-friend's secret? What if I had been more careful? Why am I so bad in friendships.
It's long gone now and every step in this life is meant to be. Why was this so hard to get over? And I wonder if she is still besties with that Blonde?
One answer is that Bondiyah was truly the bestest friend I could ever want, in 99% of every way. Because of her I got so used to a certain standard of life, living and expectations and settling for anything less is unacceptable. Having rich friends kinda messes you up.
I wonder when will this obsession come to an end? Sooner than later I hope [Insert FFWD 2009: Oh babe, if you only knew].
Pause
Pause
A breath of fresh air and a mood lightener
How adorable is McDreamy and his real-life family?
Okay, now instead of wining and depressing myself even more I shall use all the help of positivity and the powers of the earth and meditate and wish and wish and keep on wishing until that girl goes and works elsewhere. I will not wish ill upon her. Neither will I wish her any sort of bad luck. I will only wish that GOD separates her path in life from mine vastly. I've had too much misery inflicted upon me in the past. I believe a better future for me requires her in faraway land and in no way competing with me.
Till we meet again,
Sedeso
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