Dr. Oz

Omentum, is a layer of fat that is indicative of your health. You measure it by sucking in your tummy and holding the tape directly over the belly button.

For women = 32.5 inches

For men= 35 inches

Also, regular sex only allows you to lose 25 calories which is nothing.

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

Faithful men

Morgan, Heffernan Weddings Why do some men cheat and others don't?

I am constantly reprimanded for my negativity about the availability of faithful men. Are there any left roaming this earth? Because to me, they're as extinct as the dinosaurs.

What baffles me the most are 2 of my bosses, one in his mid 40's and the other in his mid 50's. And from what I see, they're too good, too chaste and faithful to their wives. How come? It makes no sense at all. He's hot, rich, fit, mature and he has no 20-something-year-old hiding behind the curtains? How?

Dear God, next time I go shopping, I'd like to bag myself one of those and he must be pleasing to the eye like the former 2.

Oh my, I just remembered how during a taxi drive abroad, the older one answered his cell phone to talk to his wife. Would you like to know what he said? Well, he acted like a hormonal teenager and went all lovey-dovey and answered: hey gorgeous? How's my soul doing today? This to a middle-aged woman. Can you believe it?

Well, I'm amazed by this. To me, it's the mystery case of the month, or maybe even year.

But I shall keep in mind that if such 2 happily-married, faithful couples exist, then there must be more, and perhaps, just perhaps one day, I'm this lucky. [Insert FWD 2021: You sure are lucky my child.  And you must learn to count your blessings]

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

"Quote"

he told me, "it's important to be with someone who respects you . but it's also important for the person to be into you. they don't have to be crazy obsessive or nothin', but their room needs to light up when you walk in . . "

he's right . no one wants to be around someone who makes the day lukewarm. we strive to find someone in life who can make us smile without saying [anything at all]. we strive to find someone who can simply appreciate what makes us... us.

he said, "when your mom walked into the room at a get-together (old folk talk haha), she came right to me. she didn't care about people seein that I was one of the most important people in her life. it was the same with me. when I walked into the room, I went to hug her first ... in front of my homies. there was no need to play games ."

mmm . he's right . being so consumed with how people perceive you can destroy a good thing. people are so worried about the 'he say, she say' . . . well, rumors and judgment can't keep you warm at night. the bullshit will come & go, but a good thing . . . that's somethin to hold on to.

he's said, "you'll always come across someone more attractive ... eventually. there's always gunna be someone that makes you think 'what if I would've dated her?' or 'damn, she bad'. but I knew that there was NO ONE who could love and support me like your mom ."

yup, he's right . imma be graphic so excuse me. but men are so concerned about how fine a girl is and how there are so many to choose from. if you've seen three vaginae, you've seen em all. i mean, honestly ... if sex is the only thing driving your relationships then you're in for a rude awakening. & women are so worried about snatching up ANY guy who blinks in their direction, neglecting the love and support system they need.

he said, "it's all about self-control."

he is right. people think money and sex is the key to feeling powerful, psh . being in control of your own actions . . . that gives the biggest fulfillment. you know that feeling when you don't reeeally wanna do something, but you are tempted and cave in. how small do you feel after? self-control does not come overnight, it takes time and practice. but once it's acquired, you feel your strongest.

yupp, that's what my dad told me today. smart man ."Unquote"

THE cake

How perfect is this cake? Flawless. My cake (I hope), *grin*

My therapist always instructed me to 'feel my existence' so that life doesn't whizz by before me realizing it. And I've been doing just that, remaining grounded; living each day as it comes, believing that the universe has a wonderful plan for me hidden right up its sleeves. But a small part of me is noticing the tick-tocking of the clock and of my ovaries.

I am worried about my accomplishments in 2008, which include my career. Lately, I have noticed a slacking mode on my behalf and I should not let it continue. This sluggish, careless attitude must cease to exist within me. I have always excelled in my chores and must continue to do so. ( No pressure babe. lol)

I am also worried about my ovaries decaying. I'm at my peak age, looks, character, and I'm pumping estrogen like nobody's business. I think it's only fair to say that I would like a man to enjoy what I have to offer. Hmm, that sounded so slutty, didn't it? I mean, I don't want to be meeting someone when I'm all saggy. Hmm, it still doesn't sound right. I'm not sure how best to explain it. But I'll relate to Michelle Pfeiffer's latest flick ( I could never be your woman), pause at the scene where she and Paul Rudd are at the restaurant and that actress/wannabe waitress hits on him, and what does the fairy point out as she's describing the waitress's toned behind? Her body is pumping estrogen and it's at its prime time, it's screaming fertility and it should be made use of.

Have I confused you all?

Oh well, maybe the next time I see hottie walking around aimlessly, I'll request a private meeting and ask him what he plans to do with my skills.
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Also, hottie looked yummy, regardless of the awful colors he was wearing. I saw too much of him today and how come his behind is too flat?

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Many minies

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What to update you with today? Or should I rephrase the question to: what shall I start with?

1) First and foremost, my revered and precious eye candy, my hottie. I miss bothering that big righteous nerd. I was enjoying my morning coffee in the tearoom when the ends of my eyes caught sight of him. I felt shy, put my head down, and pretended to be immersed in my hot drink, only after our eyes met.

Later on, myself and a senior colleague were walking into the conference room, when we saw hottie walking towards us. He was so close that neither could I jump into the closest room to hide nor could he pretend to be on his way elsewhere. I looked straight into his face to greet him, and for all, I remember I may have mumbled something but my colleague greeted louder. I looked at him and I saw something. I believe I am able to identify it: kindness. I felt warmth emanate from him.
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2) (I had a dream about you) is the text message I got from Signor today. As inspirational as Martin Luther King's speech was, this text was more intriguing. Especially so, because the following text was (about u). I'll cut through all the Lacey and prim details and simply tell you the dream:

Sedeso was dressed in black pants, black top, black shades looking really elegant, with a cropped hairdo, walking down a road with someone, and she sees a homeless signor with his blanket, she goes to him, looks at him under the blanket, her face brightens up and she walks away. <== weird huh!!

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3) And I'm meeting up with signor this weekend. I've always wondered, why, considering his good looks, charm, sensitivity, wealth, kind heart, good manners, nice physique, why I'm not too fond of this one? And bam, just like my therapist said, I actually know the answer to all my questions. The answer to my question is: he's too nice and decent a guy compared the bad boys I'm attracted to. He's noble, and moral and respectable. Oh, why oh why can't I fall for nice guys? Hold on. Here we go again, another answer. I am and hottie is too decent.

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4) الجلاء البصري

Napoleon had such acute vision that he was able to spot the enemy way before any of his men. And this 'gift' apparently can be acquired. As soon as one wakes up in the morning, he immerses his whole face into a glass bowl filled with water and keeps his eyes open. I don't remember though the duration of this exercise. I think this information can be found at http://www.bafree.net/
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5) C'etait l'anniversaire de La Vache and I decided to act noble. I gave her 2 pecks on the cheeks and wished her well. In return, she hugged me and asked to have her photo taken with me. I hope that link is healed. I am so tired of silly school girl games. We're adults and we're supposed to be much more secure than that. And mother always reminds me that sometimes in life, your closest buddy becomes your enemy and vice-versa.

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6) Tweedle dee married a mudblood. Shocking and I'm slightly jealous. Shocking because I remember her last beau very well and he was quite a catch, too good for her if I may say. Shocking also because she always mocked us hybrids and now the universe has hitched her to one. And of course I'm jealous. It's only natural to be jealous of a witch who can land a beau, this quickly, this easily. God, what about me?

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7) Oh yeah, and remember that witch of a boss? Well, I bumped into her in the loo and greeted her as if nothing ever happened. A colleague suggested I personally apologize but I think not. Don't want her to be walking all over me now do I?

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Where art thou?

Les Fleurs Oh Hottie, hottie, where art thou hottie?

Deny thy interest and refuse thy passion

Or, if thou wilt not, be but suitable for me

For I shall never be your devoted employee

I yearn for my hottie, my cutie pie, my current eye candy. Enough with the days off. Show up tomorrow and make my day.

Till we meet again

Sedeso

Increment

Yaaay, an increment, regardless of how minute it is, I'm happier.

Must force myself to control my spendings and hold onto my savings for the dear life of me since owning one property is not enough.

Mother dearest does not know about my plan to hit my beloved city in winter for the sale season, so for now it's save save save and hush-hush.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

1,2,3 Hairstyles

1) Why is it that when a person assumes the title boss, automatically, after the qualifications following their name, the initials J.E.R.K./B.I.T.C.H. gets added? ------------------------------------------------------

2) And guess whose's back in the scene? None other than the honorary La Vache. Ofcourse now that the moola has been pouring in heavily and growing on trees, past extravagant purchases must be upstaged and rubbed in everyone's face, mais bien sure.

The latest splurge: un sac qui coute un peu moins que le salaire. C'est son argent alors elle peut le depender comme elle choisi.

Now the important stuff. I felt jealous, not from her but from her ability to spoil herself when I've got to meet ends in the coming months. I decided to invest for the long term and boy is it tough to control my savings.  I feel inadequate because I'm saving to invest instead of splurging on materialistic items.

Anyways, I am in no way begrudging her what she is able to afford, or *ehem* (whatever the guy she's shagging gives her in return) *ehem* - forgive me, God, for I keep sinning yet again and again and again. I am simply realizing the milestones I'm yet to conquer in the meanwhile and the miraculous changes that are still are shaping me into a better human being.  I guess some people struggle to change.

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3) What's up with all the ass-kissing going around at work? Am I the only one immune to this pretense epidemic? This charade has been going on forever, but I only seem to have lowered my guard enough lately to have noticed and identified all this ridiculous behavior. People commenting on how lovely others look even if they resembled dogs. BLAH. People comforting others only to feed on more gossip. BLAH. People saying good stuff to your face and cussing you behind your back. Bleurgh!!

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Sod it all

I got a comment about myself yesterday: that I am bold, too bold for my own good.

My reply to this comment: Perhaps not entirely bold, but cheeky, yes; dauntless, yes and arrogant of course I won't even deny it.

And I agree 100% with all these remarks. I mean, I am the person who will go up to her superior and ask: do I look pretty today? (just for reassurance of course, lol). I am also the person who will walk into my office in the morning and instead of greeting everyone with a sweet good morning I'll shout out: God, I need a sexy man.

But the truth be told, I don't mind being this bold and shocking. To me, most of the girls I meet are replicas of each other, boring, predictable and conventional. And if not typical, then extreme rebellious, who break their families hearts. But no, not I. I am as originally flavored as can be.

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Hottie has been such an ass, ignoring my presence after that horrible excuse of a woman made a big deal out of my teeny weeny mistake. Universe, avenge me please from that woman. There, I said it loud and clear.

Hold on

Actually, maybe I do not want him. Again I am competing with myself, trying to attain the impossible and I figured out that this is one reason why I keep on getting attracted to men who are 'taken', whether legally or emotionally.

So, I shall rephrase my sentence and say:

Universe, let hottie be of benefit to me in the workplace. Let him respect me and truly want to help me out.


Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Jealousy

This is what I need to soak myself into right now. I am rundown and weary from overthinking, and very confused about everything, especially what I want to do with my life. I am receiving advice from everyone and everywhere even though I haven't asked anyone for it. And most of the advice I am getting further bewilders me.
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What's bothering me: I am jealous of her and I feel resentment towards her for being the boss's niece and for getting it all easily. But of course being the confused girl that I am, I like her a little because she is sweet. And I HATE the fact that hottie treats her like a best friend. 

How to solve it: 1) so what if hottie treats her well. He has to kiss her ass right? Whereas he's seen what I'm made of and knows what I am capable of and that I have a lot more to offer. 2) She's due soon and then comes her leave and after that,it's shorter feeding hours so I've practically got a few months to turn heads again.  Gosh why am I so threatened by her so much. 

Stop

You're competing again and it's for the wrong reason yet again.

Accept it.

But it hurts

and I'm jealous

It's okay to be jealous

You will get your break

You're a rough diamond that is being cut and you won't just shine but will blind them as you glow.

Don't worry, because this universe has a great plan for you, and your pot needs to cook a little longer.

Now hold on:

Haven't we decided already, and may God be our witness that you're one in a million. You're one of a kind, and all these petty actions and ass-kissing people are not worthy of your precious time

so

screw them all

I am going back to work

and will show them all what I am made of

And I will trust you Mr. Universe

and will try to be patient

Thank you for believing in me.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

How?

How cool is this see-thru fridge?
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Apparently, I am still striving to become perfect.

Apparently, I need to get rid of this demonic competitive streak.

Apparently, I still do not love myself enough.

Apparently I need to forgive myself and my mistakes.

But I wonder, how does one learn to do all the above? [Insert FWD 2021: You still have these traits.  You were born with them and are a part of you for a reason: to push you to fulfil your purpose on this earth.  So learn to accept them]

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

You too

Time for a rant:

Remember that jerk from work, the uneducated one who tried his level best to get me to quit? Now I'm not sure what kind of game the universe is playing but he's actually getting married this Saturday. Ironic isn't it?

I bumped into the jerk and we passed a few hasty smiles and flimsy words. I am not a charlatan by nature but sometimes I am forced into it although for those who know me too well, I can never feign interest, especially in those I despise. Well, I congratulated him on getting married and he thanked me

and

and

and

I'm still waiting for it

and

nothing from that shitface, nothing, nada, rien.

All I wanted was a simple: You too!!

Well, I don't need his prayers because my aura is strong enough.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

I miss my therapy

Extravagant
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So what's up with my therapy?

I haven't been for weeks and wonder if the latest misshapes have anything to do with my abrupt halt to attend my sessions. While I was attending them, I wondered whether I was relying too much on them, perchance counting it as an endorsement of how well I was doing.
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I know the universe is now cooking my life 'the stew' in a huge witch's pot over a very slow fire. I hope the broth turns out tasty for my own benefit.

This latest curry of spices, jealousy, sensitivity, and seasonings needs to be blended well. After all, too much of anything is never a good sign, and I'm referring to my sensitivity issue.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

My ;'wish' string

I loathe having a female boss.

Women by nature tend to be spiteful, wicked and highly driven by resent. God created them hormonal, and while they're PMSing, may the Lord give strength, patience and endurance to anyone annoying them let alone crossing their paths.

Hell hath no fury but I seem to be the target of a slithering snake who dislikes the fact that I do not show vehement interest to the tasks she sets upon me. What to do? Her work is tiresome, monotonous and has caused me bodily ailments such as backache. I cannot bring out my creativity and my personality is crushed. I've told you before, I have chosen the wrong career and moving to a creative one would be too big a risk since the right degree is needed to go anywhere these days.

I thought I was unique in the ability to excel in my work only when I approached it with passion, ardor and zealousness. But as it turns out, I am not the only one and plenty have quit high ranking positions only because they've lost that fiery passion. I cannot see myself doing the same type of mundane laborious work in another 2 years time. That is why I have my plan B ready (if only my papers get signed). Here's a known fact about myself: if you'd like to kill me, the best way is to bore me to death for everything will turn bitter grey and all I shall hear is Blah Blah Blah.
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Not so long ago, I strutted into a boutique in the Latin Quarter and had a friendly convo with the Brazilian sales ladies. Before leaving, I was given a string that I made 3 wishes on with each knot and left. My 3 wishes were actually one. And I am still wearing this kabbalah look-alike string on my wrist hoping that when it breaks, my 'simple', attainable wish (career-linked) shall come true.

I am not at a position which I can quit this job that easily, so for now, I will hang on to that wish. And universe, you know very well what it is.

Loving this look.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

I shall be avenged

The past 2 days have been a huge downer for me. One mujer boss gave me a hard time about the extra work I am doing for hottie. And another, who has no authority over me whatsoever, embarrassed me by sending a mass email to every tom dick and harry about a misinterpretation I recorded during a meeting. I am not just shocked but appalled at the lack of email/work etiquette. You do not go around bashing someone's skills and capabilities in front of the whole department over a mistake especially if you've got 20yrs worth of work experience. And I, the new kid on the block, is supposed to teach you some manners? And why create an antipathetic atmosphere?

Allow me to quote Closet Diva, one of my fave bloggers: http://maa7ib-rasmiyaat.blogspot.com/

quote: social underdogs with sudden power behave quite antithetically to those in the west. The minute they receive their powerful position, they guard it protectively with shields of iron from threats existing only in their imaginative mind. Every so often they decide to dump their years of rage and fury on fresh bright and younger colleagues whose confidence is yet untainted by reality.

I may be the underdog for the next few hours but not for long. I believe in Karma strongly, and I will let God avenge me. Ukh, these malicious, malevolent women. Disgusting. You just wait and see.

I wonder what hottie's reaction will be to all this.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Universe, well done

Just yesterday I was feeling frustrated about ending up on the wrong career path. And this morning, Queen Bee harassed me for doing the Director's work for him, calling it secretarial work that is beneath me. But I'd rather do his secretarial work than her routine monotonous work any day since he's my 'eyecandy'. Lol.

I know this is you, universe, working in your own, silent, mysterious way and I truly hope that the outcome is a positive one.

I remember what Signor wrote in my bday card 2yrs back: For every action, there is an equal an opposing reaction.

Thank you universe for hearing me out once again.

Today, I am loving Chanel even more. 

And today, I will make a decision to talk less to people about my private life. Seems like my lifestyle is of interest to a lot of people and I'm becoming everyone's fave biscuit with their cup of tea. It's called private for a reason and it should remain this way.

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

Universe, help me, Aide-moi!!

Gorgeous Gift-wrapping, nést ce pas?
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It's amazing how the universe reacts to my desires.

2 posts ago, I made a decision to refrain from thinking about men. The next day, just one day later, Yara calls me telling me she's found me a good match and I should seriously consider him and ignore the fact that he's divorced with 4 boys.

I still do not get this Law Of Attraction fully. I will not jinx myself but will knock on wood.

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I have realized something vital today. I am in the wrong career, not workplace but a career. What to do? Universe, solve it for me please, along with the million other issues that are keeping my mind occupied [insert FFWD April 2010: See my child, all happens at the right time. Inshalla even marriage and babies will fall perfectly into place].

[insert FFWD April 2021: you do get married to a wonderful man my child and your kids are adorable and you do fulfill all your dreams and obsessions from your 20s].

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

The Italian Stallion

Yep, that's what the girls called him today. I felt a lil pang of jealousy but got over it quickly. If this proves anything it's that I've got great taste in les hommes.

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Seeing baby Nora, hugging her, sniffing her neck, showering her with butterfly kisses made me very confused as to whether I really want children or not. Whenever I imagined the future, I always saw a partner somewhere but never any children. The detailed horror stories of giving birth have put me off from having children. Actually, I think I may have been scarred for life just by imagining it. Eww, gross!! But a smaller part of me, maybe about 5%, would like to hold my own babies one day. I don't know, it's all so confusing. All I know for now is that triumph will be in finding the right partner not in making babies.

Loving this theme:

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

Bored for now

PS: I kinda got bored of drooling over him. Maybe because it's the weekend and I've had a fun one. Let's see what'll happen when I see him tomorrow.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Baby Nora

Every problem has a solution. I honestly do not care about what those close-minded people say, but every problem can be solved. I grew up hearing things like a girls reputation is like glass, once scratch and it's no good anymore. I think not. Because I believe, truly believe that some people appreciate a broken vase or a scratched piece of amber. Also, since when were all girls flawless crystal vases? I don't get this mentality of denying that human beings have desires and are very likely to sin.

Some people should never be relied on such as Dumbo, whose a huge coward. I thought I had a solution and made a proposition that would not have cost much. 10 grand would have been a reasonable fee. Why am I not surprised at all that Dumbo disappeared since that day? And how long will it take me to get rid of such trashy people from my life once and for all? Dumbo is nothing but a leech. Eww!!
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I am an auntie. My bestie gave birth half an hour ago to a beautiful baby girl whom she named Nora. I bet she'll grow up to be gorgeous because she was named Nora. I've ordered the chocolate basket and I'm looking forward to seeing her tomorrow.

I am not jealous, I am simply wondering what exciting things the future holds for me [insert FFWD: APRIL 2010: Good girl, you have grown milestones my child].

My best days are yet to come.
And how cute are these?
Till we meet again,
Auntie Sedeso

The List

The other day, I sat with a colleague who is more desperate than I am to get hitched. She knows what she wants and she is determined to get it by repeat prayer. Whereas I am not quiet sure if getting hitched is the answer. I know I want to find a lobster but do I really want to get married to them, become the faithful obedient wife and bear their children? Don't misunderstand me. I am no notorious flirt, neither am I the boring nerd some think I am. I simply am enjoying my single status right now so much. Way too much. I loved being able to get into my car with some friends, drive all the way to a resort and enjoy the beach without a care in the world, or worries about being allowed to go and how long to stay. My time is my own to waste. My decisions are my own to make. But most importantly, my life is my own to live the way I wish.

Anyways, we were acting foolish and girly and jotted down 10 traits we'd like in our future hubby's . She wrote hers down in less than a minute. It took me a lot longer and I'm not even sure if those 10 traits are the one that I truly one. So here's another shot.

If God decides to give me a lobster, here's what I think I would like:

1) Accepts me with all my faults

2) Patient

3) Educated

4) Kind-hearted

5) Strong

6) Respects me and is proud of me

7) Fit & well-dressed

8) Enjoys travelling

9) Very well off

10) Well-endowed

A girl is allowed to dream. After all, wasn't it Walt Disney who said: If you can dream it, you can make it. [insert FFWD April 2010: So dear child, does The One fit your list? Easily I'd say, because right now he is perfect in your eyes]

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

Turn me on

With a new beloved, every bad habit and quality becomes bearable. The way they chew, the way they walk, their breath, their messy hair, their beer belly, are all oh-so-cute. Adorable is seems to be the only way to describe it all. But after a break-up, whatever we adored in them becomes the biggest turn-off.

Right now, I like:
-His smile and how his face just brightens up and it's contagious.
-His breath after he smokes, is an aphrodisiac.
-His broad shoulders that I'd love to be hugged by.

Having a crush is a wonderful thing once it remains behind the finish line of sanity.

Coveted item du jour:

On another note, I love reading my horoscope. I find it the most accurate.

From yesterday:

In general: Putting together a drop-dead look isn't difficult when you're so creative, just keep it simple. <=== I agree. E7m e7m, vain old Sedeso gets raving reviews about her immaculately put-together outfits. Even my bosses have noticed and one of them called me a trendsetter. That's nice.

In Love: Whether to hold on or let go is a question that baffles many a mind. Consider this; would either action help or hurt you? <=== Now this I must consider carefully. 2 posts ago, I was contemplating whether to carry on obsessing or simply let go. Would going after him hurt me? It might. But there's nothing I love more than a near impossible yet somehow achievable challenge. So, I will persist, but with much less vigor and allow the pot roast to cook slowly in the pot. Remember, every man falls at the end and the woman is the last man standing.

In Work: Although you may not notice it right away, changes in the management positions at work will affect you positively. <=== I've been counting on this one and waiting for it for a while now.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Animals Strike back

I'm glad those crying outbursts are becoming less frequent, but I got attacked by one yesterday. And the reason: plain old jealousy came knocking at my door when I remembered a happily-married colleague of mine.

Why has the fate leprechaun left her a pot of gold filled with a picture-perfect family at her doorstep? I don't get it. She can be mean and very bitter most of the time. I cannot comprehend it.
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How much longer before this obsession ends?
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The animal kingdom strikes back:

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Should I persist?

When a task becomes near impossible, does one give up? And how long does one persist at chasing a goal? How do we come to realize that some things aren't meant to be and we should just let go of the whole idea in hope of better things coming along instead?

I'm talking about the 1 thing that has been occupying my mind lately of course. Should I stop? Should I persist? Should I up the cute flirting? Should I be more or less obvious? I am dazed, confused, and overwhelmed. Everything has remained stagnant for the past few days, and I'm not sure I am over the physical attraction bit.

Before bagging this 'trophy' man, I should first grab his attention, which I believe I certainly have done. Next, I need to get the mild reactions (interested looks, wanting my constant presence in their territory) and then the fiercer (verbal and physical) reactions. I might have been mixing his vibe because I no longer know what to expect. This is turning into a challenge. Do I really want him or am I simply this eager because he's taken and a challenge to my ego?


Loving:
Till we meet again,
Sedeso

Name / Number

From http://www.astrology-numerology.com/

My name number is an 8 and this reading I believe is more accurate than the life path number based on my birthdate.

8 (8, 17/8, 26/8, 35/8, 44/8, 53/8)
The number 8 Destiny suggests that the direction of growth in your lifetime will be a move up the ladder of attainment in the material world, to achieve financial security, and status amongst your peers. The positive 8 Destiny produces individuals that are very ambitious and goal-oriented. If you are expressing the positive qualities of 8, you are an outstanding manager because you can plan, initiate, and complete projects; you are very dependable and determined.
The 8 Destiny makes you well-equipped to develop and grow in a managerial sense. You have outstanding potential for organizational and administrative responsibilities.
You have the potential for considerable achievement in business or other powerful positions such as government leadership roles. You have the skill and abilities to establish or operate a business with great efficiency.
You can expect to receive the financial and material rewards. You have good judgment when it comes to money and commercial matters, and you understand how to build and accumulate material wealth.
Much of your success must come due to your ability to judge character. With the number 8 Destiny, you must exercise sound judgment in most of your affairs; you must be realistic and practical in your approach to business matters.
No one has any more energy that a person with the 8 Destiny who has a plan laid and is starting to work. No one has any more self-confidence, either.
If you have too much of the 8 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes. A negative 8 can be very rigid and stubborn. Ambition sometimes has a way of becoming over-ambition, and you may express an unreasonable impatience with the lack of progress. If your negative side is showing, you may be too exacting, both of yourself and of others. Sometimes this can even becomes a case of intolerance. The Destiny 8 is on a quest for status and power. Neither of these drives are inherently negative unless they are taken to an extreme. You must avoid the tendency to strain after money, material matters, status, or power, to the detriment of the other important factors in your life.

Very accurate I believe.
Till we meet again
Sedeso

Sleepless in Summerville

I am having a hard time sleeping. My sensitivity to light is so sharp that as soon as I feel the sunrays penetrating my curtains, I am wide awake and my eyelids feel uncomfortable shutting. This is why, I have become an early bird and try to get as many hours of shut-eye as possible. It might have been okay had this been the only problem. But the worst thing is that my therapy is ongoing and my unconscious mind is a lion roaring through the night as it jumps from one hoop of thought to the next. My inner self is a turbulent volcano that has come so close to erupting but has never done so. Will I feel better if I explode?

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Loving this perhaps in a pastel colour:

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Palm-reading has become so passe, and my latest craze is numerology. I added my birthdate and got a 6 which means:

The Life Path 6 suggests that you entered this plane with tools to become the ultimate nurturer, and a beacon for truth, justice, righteousness, and domesticity. Your paternal, or maternal, as the case may be, instincts with a 6 Life Path exceed all others by a considerable margin. Whether in the home or in the workplace, you are the predominant caretaker and family head. While the 6 may assume significant responsibilities in the community, life revolves around the immediate home and family, for this is the most domestic of numbers. Conservative principles and convictions are deeply ingrained and define your character.

You are idealistic and must feel useful to be happy. The main contribution you make is that of advice, service, and ever-present support. You are a humanitarian of the first order. It is your role to serve others, and you start in the home environment. You are very human and realistic about life, and you feel that the most important thing in your life is the home, the family, and the friends.

This is the Life Path related to leadership by example and assumption of responsibility, thus, it is your obligation to pick up the burden and always be ready to help. If you are like the majority with Life Path 6, you are one who will willingly carry far more than your fair share of any load, and you are always there when needed. In doing so, you take ownership and often become an authority over the situation.

In romance, the 6 is loyal and devoted. A caretaker type, you are apt to attract partners who are somewhat weaker and needier than yourself; someone you can care for and protect. The main ingredient that must prevail in the relationship is complete harmony. You don't function well in stressful relationships that become challenges for you to control. It is the same with friends, you are loyal and trustworthy. But there is a tendency for you to become dominating and controlling.
It's likely you feel compelled to function with strength and compassion. You are a sympathetic and kind person, generous with personal and material resources. Wisdom, balance, and understanding are the cornerstones of your life, and these define your approach to life in general. Your extraordinary wisdom and the ability to understand the problems of others is apt to commence from an early age. This allows you to easily span the generation gap and assume an important role in life early on.
The number 6 Life Path actually produces few negative examples, but there are some pitfalls peculiar to the path. You may have a tendency to become overwhelmed by responsibilities and a slave to others, especially members of your own family or close friends. It's easy for you to fall into a pattern of being too critical of others; you also have a tendency to become to hard on yourself. The misuse of this Life Path produces tendencies for you to engage in exaggeration, over-expansiveness, and self-righteousness. Modesty and humility may not flow easily. Imposing one's views in an interfering or meddling way must be an issue of concern.
The natural burdens of this number are heavy, and on rare occasions, responsibility is abdicated by persons with this Life Path 6. This rejection of responsibility will make you feel very guilty and uneasy, and it will have very damaging effects on your relationships with others.

Till we meet again,

Sedeso