He called me an hour ago.
I am on cloud 9 because back then, I thought I've destroyed it and was agitated I'd never again gain Agent 009's respect.
It shouldn't matter what others think of us as long as we accept ourselves with our faults. However, since it ended on a bad note, I never got over how I single-handedly ruined what could have been THE " Love Story" of my life. I blamed myself for its failure for a very long time after that. Until this day, I seldom wonder, what it might have been like had that affair lasted? For a short time, being with him was EUPHORIC, and nothing else mattered.
I am on cloud 9 because back then, I thought I've destroyed it and was agitated I'd never again gain Agent 009's respect.
It shouldn't matter what others think of us as long as we accept ourselves with our faults. However, since it ended on a bad note, I never got over how I single-handedly ruined what could have been THE " Love Story" of my life. I blamed myself for its failure for a very long time after that. Until this day, I seldom wonder, what it might have been like had that affair lasted? For a short time, being with him was EUPHORIC, and nothing else mattered.
Today, I love Agent 009.
I love him for being the biggest motivator for me to become a better person. After him, I hit rock bottom. That heartbreak was what pushed me to the edge, and what pushed me to pick up the pieces of my broken heart, wake up from that deadly state more determined to turn my life around.
I love how much he taught me about being a mature person. I love him mostly for being the catalyst to my transformation.
I do love him. Always have and always will.
But for now, I think I'd like to try The Gentleman. I have this image in my mind of The Gentleman being an older version of Agent 009. I wonder how my future will unfold... I'm excited about it actually....
.......Memory, all alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
I was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory, Live again......And on the fashion scene, am loving those:
1. Derek Lam
2. D&G
Till we meet again,
Sedeso
"Quote" "This was my chance to release him, and fight myself free from my obsession. He would get over me in a few months and go on to be a very big man. So I sailed off to Jamaica. But i freely admit that everywhere I set my feet down, there were tracks of blood. Blood from the middle of my heart. I did not write because if i had written and he answered my letter, everything would have been broken down . . ." -Zora Neale Hurston .
so, that's as far as I've gotten in her book. & so far, she survived without him. so far . . . it makes all the sense in the world to me. so far, I have still waters about this.
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But for now, I think I'd like to try The Gentleman. I have this image in my mind of The Gentleman being an older version of Agent 009. I wonder how my future will unfold... I'm excited about it actually....
.......Memory, all alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
I was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory, Live again......And on the fashion scene, am loving those:
1. Derek Lam
2. D&G
Till we meet again,
Sedeso
"Quote" "This was my chance to release him, and fight myself free from my obsession. He would get over me in a few months and go on to be a very big man. So I sailed off to Jamaica. But i freely admit that everywhere I set my feet down, there were tracks of blood. Blood from the middle of my heart. I did not write because if i had written and he answered my letter, everything would have been broken down . . ." -Zora Neale Hurston .
so, that's as far as I've gotten in her book. & so far, she survived without him. so far . . . it makes all the sense in the world to me. so far, I have still waters about this.
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