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God, if I remain good for 40 days will you give me every man I ever desired in heaven? Can I be their Cleopatra and can they please feed me strawberries dipped in vanilla ice cream, chocolate, and honey all day long?

I'm a desperado lass in many ways.

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I was going through some old posts of mine and boy am I proud of myself. I have come a long way and both my personality and character have had some serious nip-tuck jobs.

In October 2006, I read a book that hit me smack in the face. It karate-chopped my beliefs in the perfect relationship. But I'll have to admit that my ideals of the perfect relationship still need some screwing about since they still are derived from fairytales.

A man does not marry a woman who is perfect. A man marries a woman who is interesting.

And tada!! Unknowingly, I have become less of a perfectionist 'for others' and more of an " I'll change because I want to and I like it" kind of woman. I find myself interesting and so is my lifestyle. I diss the few fans that I have and purposely ignore all the others, keeping my fantasies alive like a wildfire alongside. What I am trying to say is that unknowingly I have become this imperfect, interesting woman.

Coveted item du jour: This Prada clutch.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

"Quote"" you've changed =/ "

that was in my "honesty" box the other day. that's all. there was nothing more at all as if to tease my mind and soul with some empty declaration about my character.

YOU HAVE CHANGED

hmm . they are so right. i have changed. However, is change not needed for the survival, existence, and success in life? Why does change always have to be a bad thing? If I was still the same person that I was in second grade then I'd be crying because you don't want to "play with me" or losing my sweater at work every day.
I learned almost three years ago that change is inevitable in life. As much as you fight, scratch, and pull at God's feet ... he has a plan and "change" in your life. People are born, people die, people become famous, people move away, people change. Life's lessons and experiences have changed me, yes. death, heartache, betrayal, disappointment, and life have changed me. I am a harder person. I am a colder person in some aspects of my life. However, I don't regret who I've become. I am a stronger person. I embrace life more than I ever have before. I love my family and friends more, appreciate them for their love & support. I can see the sincerity in people now. I am a more honest person (with others and myself). Life's insignificant nuances don't sway me. I don't try to please everyone anymore. I live for God, family, REAL friends and what I feel is right for me. I am happy and embracing life full force. I like my change.
I don't think the mystery person meant to be malicious or disrespectful. Perhaps it was just something for me to think about. However, if they knew me before i "changed" ... then they would know that i never have and never will ...LIVE FOR SOMEONE ELSE'S APPROVAL44

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