I am so angry, I would like to tear open someone's flesh with my hands.
That vigorous workout did me no good at all. Somewhere between the steps and cross machines I looked up and saw my reflection and I didn't like what I saw. It wasn't just anger, but a combination of distress and sorrow.
I am on the verge of exploding because, in my opinion, sometimes unfair things happen to good people. Why is that? You see the good ones hurting and all you can do is hold them, comfort them, then look up to the sky and ask over and over again: Why are you doing this? Why are you hurting my loved ones? Why? Take the bad ones. Hurt the bad ones. But leave my loved ones alone.
And once again, I am astounded at a mother's ability to endure pain for her children. If having children will cause me this much heartache, then I don't want them. I have a full enough schedule taking care of myself. I am not sure I will ever be able to cope with children sucking the life, happiness, and sanity out of me.
So, I did this to make me feel better. Screw that workout. It did nothing to life my mood.
That vigorous workout did me no good at all. Somewhere between the steps and cross machines I looked up and saw my reflection and I didn't like what I saw. It wasn't just anger, but a combination of distress and sorrow.
I am on the verge of exploding because, in my opinion, sometimes unfair things happen to good people. Why is that? You see the good ones hurting and all you can do is hold them, comfort them, then look up to the sky and ask over and over again: Why are you doing this? Why are you hurting my loved ones? Why? Take the bad ones. Hurt the bad ones. But leave my loved ones alone.
And once again, I am astounded at a mother's ability to endure pain for her children. If having children will cause me this much heartache, then I don't want them. I have a full enough schedule taking care of myself. I am not sure I will ever be able to cope with children sucking the life, happiness, and sanity out of me.
So, I did this to make me feel better. Screw that workout. It did nothing to life my mood.
____________________________________Can't wait for the movie Little Ashes to come out about Salvador Dali's work.
Till we meet again,
Sedeso
PS: mom loved the Zac Posen number.
2 comments:
whaaaaaa!!! tawni i finished my McDz meal...2 cheese burgers...lol *drinking the up size coke* =P
hope you are feeling better today =)
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