Carlito was the one who sat me at the cafe one day and forced me to repeat after him that I will never hook up with anyone unless I was head over heels in love with him. He made me cry that day out of utter and sheer desperation of the impossible future that he described.
Carlito was the one who introduced me to all his friends and family as his most interesting Arab woman friend. He commended me for being unconventional in both my behavior and looks.
Carlito complimented me continuously with remarks that would leave me dumbstruck. I complained once about how I only got attention from older men and his reply was: Because they're neither young nor foolish to appreciate a typical, tanned, blond airhead. They're old and wise enough to appreciate an intelligent brunette and true beauty. To them, you're a Sophia Loren. See, I bet you'd be speechless too.
Carlito was the one who gave me his twisted advice day in day out. He also called and droned my brain with his obsessive pursuit of that Romanian Audrey Hepburn look-alike.
Carlito recommended that I watch The Namesake and I luuurrvveed it. He also recommended Orhan Pamuk's My Name is Red and it became my number one book. He knew what I would like.
And when I avoided him after that awkward and difficult conversation, he understood and never contacted me again. I never considered him more than a friend whom I got on with so well.
How could I not have seen it back then?
Today, I figured out that Carlito was indeed in Love with me.
I've had this happen to me before, and most of these men tend to be wonderful for my soul but displeasing to my eyes. I am in no way attracted to overweight or even chubby men. And that is very sad because apparently, it's one of those who can make me happy. [insert FFWD April 2010: Yes, I'm glad that you realize this now for The One will be everything that physically displeases you in a man.]
What a shame that I am not ready yet at the ripe age of 27. It would have been perfect.____________________________________
"Quote" most guys who say that a girl's standards are unrealistic are usually the ones who are intimidated. It's not about money or status, i think it's more about the state of mind. "Unquote"
I believe the above quote applies to yours truly.
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Coveted items du jour: (Prada) backless top are so haute.
Till we meet againSedeso
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