The One on Jealousy

This is a new one:

I am a very jealous female. I am not sure though which feeds on the other. Is my jealous nature driving my constant competitiveness or vice versa?

I am too jealous for my own good. I admit it and I admit how unhealthy it is.

For the past 2 days, I have literally gone MAD. No, Bonkers is more like it. I mentioned the singer to my man and his comment was, she's not just pretty, she has a HOT body.

Fuck Him.

I was boiling. I cried, I hated myself. I started imagining all sorts of negative scenarios in my head. It got to the extent that I considered leaving him.

I need help. I will ask my therapist about this. I don't want my jealousy to ruin the best relationship I ever had. The thing is, I know the answer. As usual, the answer is in me. I feel this jealous because I am not secure with myself and who I am and what my abilities are.

I am even considering dressing like a vixen the next time we go out to dinner so that he notices how all the men cannot keep their eyes off me (insecure I know).

Why should I be with someone who finds a singer hotter than me? He either sees me as the hottest thing or forget about him. I know he does find me attractive but he is the boyfriend who shows it the least.

On the other side, he did (bless him) tell me he fancied her before he met me and that I am the Bentley that shouldn't compare myself to the Camry. 

So we'll just see how it all resolves.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

I bet you're curious as to who is this other woman is who has triggered such emotions in me. Here she is.

"Quote" "I hated to think of him smiling unless he was smiling at me. His grins were too precious to be wasted on ordinary mortals, especially women .""Unquote"