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I love him more than life itself. I was enjoying my food
at Trader Vic's and looked up at how imperfect he was yet how I would never change his looks for the world. His beard, his very dark circles, his balding head and his tender, soft brown skin. I wouldn't change his looks for the world. He is perfect in my eyes.
at Trader Vic's and looked up at how imperfect he was yet how I would never change his looks for the world. His beard, his very dark circles, his balding head and his tender, soft brown skin. I wouldn't change his looks for the world. He is perfect in my eyes.I've hurt him this time. I really have. I could see sadness in his face. He loves me and is trying his level best to be with me and please me.
What a bitch I can be sometimes. How ungrateful I am. God has given me the perfect man, a man I only dreamt of having and this is the way I treat him? I know he loves me because he is still with me and I better not ruin this relationship since this is the real stuff. This is what fairy tales are made of.
I swear that if I was with any other man, he would have left me for good.
This is why I am truly blessed to have him in my life.
But what was I thinking? I know the answer as per usual. I was hurt myself for God knows what and I decided to bring out my anger and frustration onto him and hurt him. I have wanted to hurt him for awhile now because consciously:I was reflecting my frustration, and unconsiously: I was pushing the boundaries to test the limits of his patience (dangerous).
Love need not be a rollercoaster. Love is what I have with him: comfortable, safe, stable and secure for life.
Dear God, please please please help me. I must see the light. I must stop hurting the love of mine. I must put all my efforts into loving him, being happy with him and making him the happiest man alive.
May this post serve as a reminder why he is The One and why I should control my inner demons.Till we meet again,
Sedeso
"Quote" i suppose i'll have a story to tell my little girl someday .
that's how i like to look at it, 'these things'. i just like to sit and think about the way i can tell my little girl that pain comes and fairy tales are for suckas .
but how ? all you want to do is stop her heart from burning , crusting on the outside and then roasting internally . who can handle giving their child Neosporin for their burns ? saying, "sweety, hearts burn slowly, but you have to extinguish them quickly before the flames spread to the mind ". she'd never understand ...my hypothetical daughter, that is . how do you tell your little girl these things ?
i just wanna wrap caution tape around disappointment and anguish . should she know that 'happily ever afters' often leave out 'behind the scenes' footage ? all you want to do is tell her that Cinderella probably has a jealous, obsessed ex that prince charming doesn't know about . maybe we can watch Snow White on Maury and her paternity test of the seven dwarfs . hopefully, we'll catch the 'Cheaters' episode featuring belle when she cheats on the beast with that horny, talkative, french candle stick guy ? somewhere along the line, i imagine i'll be torn between saving her innocence or branding it as naivete . honestly, somethings gotta give .
'cause this feeling aint for amateurs . . . and i could never take the tears of my little girl if she got her heart torn apart .Lord, please bless me with a boy . "Unquote"
"Quote" i suppose i'll have a story to tell my little girl someday .
that's how i like to look at it, 'these things'. i just like to sit and think about the way i can tell my little girl that pain comes and fairy tales are for suckas .
but how ? all you want to do is stop her heart from burning , crusting on the outside and then roasting internally . who can handle giving their child Neosporin for their burns ? saying, "sweety, hearts burn slowly, but you have to extinguish them quickly before the flames spread to the mind ". she'd never understand ...my hypothetical daughter, that is . how do you tell your little girl these things ?
i just wanna wrap caution tape around disappointment and anguish . should she know that 'happily ever afters' often leave out 'behind the scenes' footage ? all you want to do is tell her that Cinderella probably has a jealous, obsessed ex that prince charming doesn't know about . maybe we can watch Snow White on Maury and her paternity test of the seven dwarfs . hopefully, we'll catch the 'Cheaters' episode featuring belle when she cheats on the beast with that horny, talkative, french candle stick guy ? somewhere along the line, i imagine i'll be torn between saving her innocence or branding it as naivete . honestly, somethings gotta give .
'cause this feeling aint for amateurs . . . and i could never take the tears of my little girl if she got her heart torn apart .Lord, please bless me with a boy . "Unquote"
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