Okay, my broth is boiling today. It's a mixture of fear, slight anger, anxiety, and wonder. It's mostly that feeling of waiting for something to happen that will change the path my life is taking. Something positive of course.
And the other day, I found myself checking out married men, who are dark-skinned, bearded, chubby, and average. OMG, another light-bulb popping: am I envisioning myself with my beau in a matrimonial situation hence the attractiveness of these ineligible men? Makes sense somehow.
My Lebanon trip is in 5 days' time yet I haven't even started packing, which is so unlike me.
And death has been on my mind a lot. I don't want to say I am afraid but simply am aware that Mr. Death can visit anybody at any time. This is affecting my prayers positively making them regular. It is also affecting my relationship because every night I remind him that I love and adore him in case either one of us dies.
Dear God, please send some inner peace towards me. I do want to sleep well.
Till we meet again,
Sedeso
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