I love him. This is a fact.
He loves me. Another fact.
He loves me more now than he did when we first got together. Now, this I know for sure.
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After yesterday's post, I asked my sibling to keep me company and we went to watch "My Sister's Keeper" at the movies. He called many times and I ignored him. I was angry, so angry at him for neglecting me somehow.
I answered his third phone call and informed him of my whereabouts as per usual.
He closed the phone.
The movie ended and I was on the verge of exploding. So I gave my sibling some cash and asked her to go home in a cab.
I left in a hurry and drove all the way to el capitalo. I reached the outskirts of el capitalo and gave him a call. There was no reply. I tried again. No reply. I texted. Again, no reply. It was past midnight. All the malls were either closed or about to. I called my friends to ask for directions and they called me NUTS for randomly popping by their city.
The plan was to surprise him but it seems like he wanted to surprise me. Really??? He sounded genuine but today I have doubts (which usually ends up being paranoia on my side).
He came with his niggaz apparently to congratulate the tycoon then he was planning on seeing me. There are a million and one ways in which I can dissect this sentence and call him a liar. But I won't, mainly because right now I am not in the sanest of all minds to act without guidance or take a decision that could affect the long-term of this relationship.
He loves me yes. I want his love to grow deeper and stronger. But something has made me cringe since yesterday. He opened up the subject of money once more, dissected my spendings and savings, and made me feel like a nobody. He even tried to offer me some cash but of course, I refused it vehemently. I love him for who he is not for his money.
I feel so belittled now. And I blame him for making me feel like this.
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Till we meet again,
Sedeso
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