My infatuation with Bedouins is growing by the day because of my current beau. I love their physique: dark, rugged, good-looking but manly in every way. Their pores ooze manliness and they over pump testosterone, mamma mia. Love ém right now. Just LOVING THEM!!! I keep an eye out for anything remotely bedouin-looking when I go out that Nilofar finds it hilarious and prays to God that I do end up with one just for the sake of it.
I'd rather not get into the extremes I am doing just to get more info about the people I hope and wish and will become my in-laws. For if I do this, then you may think me slightly mad and I stress on the 'slightly' bit. I know of crazier individuals who are going beyond extreme measures like old aunt K. I'm only googling and wikifying.
It turns out my beau belongs to a well-known, well-off family. They have a bloody roundabout named after them. When I found out I was intimidated and asked the Universe why I was created of a lesser status. But slowly, I regained my confidence and reminded myself that I am truly individual in every way. I have a humungous heart that will smother my future in-laws and family with devoted unconditional love. The people in my life love me and constantly remind me of how loveable and sincere I am. Hadooi, bless her told me a few days ago: أنتي الإنسان يحبج لأن عشرتج حلوة .
All this brings me to ask myself: if I stripped his name away and gave him a Tunisian or Egyptian name, would my feelings for him be any less?
At this stage, I'd say no, but knowing myself well enough by now, I am certain that it will strain my relationship somehow and I may disrespect him during the conflict. See, I am nowhere near the end of my self-healing process and still require to dig deeper.
As much as I am tempted to beg the All-Mighty to hitch me to a Bedouin, the saner part of me is reminding me that marrying a Bedouin is not an insurance of happiness. I should instead ask for a decent faithful man who will love me regardless and always respect me. That's why my prayers are dedicated towards a mutually exclusive love marriage, regardless of age, race, ethnicity, and family name. I dislike certain ethnicities but at the end if it is meant to be then nothing I do will change that. Not even strong black magic.
Will you God? Pretty Please. Will you grant me all that my heart desires?
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PS: I've been constructing his family tree from google and I admit that I am really really good at finding out information AKA stalking. Which teaches me another thing about myself. I love searching for information and finding clues and piecing them together. Are all women like this?
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