Yes, I would say grey with envy and not green because this time I actually exploded. Literally. At his mention that his ex- Foofoo who looked like Maisa, I remembered her near-perfect features, got so jealous and screamed my head off like a monster. I don't know what got into me because I felt a puffing in my chest and an explosion through my head and ears. I told him: to fuck off; that I no longer wanted him; and that I refused to be with any man who did see and consider me as the best thing in his life; either I was the wow factor or forget it.
Sanity may tell me that the past should not matter but I hate it. I should be his all; his past, his present and his future.
What angered me even more is that albeit having met high profile men, Agent 009 always complimented me and made me feel like a million dollars. Hold on a second. Was it him back then or was my self-confidence much higher? Pay attention Sedeso and don't confuse things.
Here she is:
Till we meet again,
Sedeso
[ FFW 2021: Gosh no, what was wrong with you darling? You're way way way better looking? Why were you comparing yourself to random people?]
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