Am I really that pretty?

I've always known that my looks were above average. Yet, The One, is making me question myself.

I love him so much, but I also want to hurt him so much.

I find myself questioning whether he deserves to be with me or not?

The people around me cannot stop complimenting me on how beautiful I am. I am sure I am stunning because regardless of what I am wearing, everywhere I go, alot of eyes tend to be on me. Even Su3ad has noticed this and mentioned it so many times: "You've got that look that makes people want to look back and stare".

Just yesterday Nada saw me in college and posted on my Facebook: "Btw, you looked gorgeous today, you always look wow".

Toddler told me: "you look fine" when he saw me last. And then wondered why I cannot see what he sees.

So why does The One not tell me that?

I don't care about the whole love thyself preach, every woman regardless of whether she was a farmer's wife or Miss Universe wants to be seen as the most beautiful female by her man. Again, what I want is simple, very simple. So why can't I have it?

God, are you listening to me?

Till we meet again,
Sedeso