Out of fear

Being in doldrums lately has taken its toll on my positivity. I am still not fulfilled and stability in everything is not gratifying now. I want more and more and more. First and foremost I want The One to declare his undying love to me. I then want him to propose and promise me a happily ever after, till death do us part life. I want him to be in love with me and no one else but me. I wish that to him, I am the only woman who exists. Its April now, and that anticipation is still there, bugging me, and constantly reminding me that I still have not received what I want when it comes to relationships. How much longer will I have the interest to persist? Am I close to losing interest and giving up? Right now, nothing is keeping me motivated but my studies and even with those I could be doing much much better.

And right now, I want to pray to God out of fear, not out of love. Recent deaths have increased this fear in me. I know, I know, I realize this means I am a hypocrite and will only love God if he gives me. I am very, I mean VERY grateful for everything that I have but I want more. Oh well, better go and pray.

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Queen Asma of Morroco, a stunner don't you think? Happy that look shines in me.

Till we meet again,

Sedeso