Confrontation

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My mother would label my latest action as the biggest mistake. Then again, my mother sees things through a different colored glass.

I called up Ibtisam, the supposedly other woman, and spoke to her calmly, very calmly in my non-threatening voice. It's been eating me for months, ever since I found out and today something pushed me to call. I was expecting a slightly more alarming reaction than what I got. I wasn't even thinking about the consequences, it was more I'm dying to cool down the fire that has been eating at me inside.

She denied being his woman and couldn't talk since she was at work. She was even surprised when I mentioned his name (could he have lied about his name or did she know too many people with the same name?).

She called me back within 1 minute, surprised that I know her name, and asked if I was the wife (of course I replied yes)(it seems she knew he had somebody in his life), and she seemed worried how I knew her name and whether he has mentioned her name in front of other men. She then recounted the exact same story that he told me the first time: that she called him by mistake and they started talking and it wasn't for too long and most of their conversations were about studies since they were both doing their masters. She told me not to worry because they never dated. She didn't even know that he was back doing his masters in London now

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I was very calm, and somehow apologetic on the phone. I asked her to clarify something and made sure she understood that she will not be bothered or harmed or disturbed again in any way.

She gave me so much information so easily. Did she feel guilty about speaking to a married man? (OMG, this is the circle of life. This could be the response of how calmly I reacted to Nobleman's missus). I kept repeating to myself after the phone call and whilst still shivering: For every action, there is an equal and opposing reaction.

I felt something though. I felt she had a lot of qualities similar to mine: confident, educated, well-spoken, hardworking, and intelligent.

This time he was telling me the truth. He was not lying. And he did not initiate the communication with this girl.

But I feel guilty about what I did and hope to God that it doesn't come back to me in a bad way.

Most importantly, I hope to God that he remains faithful as long as we are together.

Till we meet again,

Sedeso

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