Thank you Lord

I always wondered what happened to all those prayers and pleads, the thousands of them that I sent out and up to God, some whilst being content and happy but the majority out of despair.  What happened to them?  And I got my answer yesterday, somehow.

My extremist uncle caught my teen cousins with some guys from the hood and flipped.  He called the police, then called their father, then made a big scene.  Their mother being the strong solid woman that she is got them out of trouble easily.

I realized that a certain one of my prayers have been heard and answered: God please hide my sins in heaven and on earth. For I too like to have my fun without being caught.  Thank you, God, thank you.  And forgive me God as my belief is very shaky.   

I got so angry at my uncle for his reaction because somethings should be dealt with carefully, and just like that, something clicked and I got tearful and realized that my man would have dealt with the situation more calmly. I realized what a wonderful man I am and how blind I can be sometimes. I teared up and bbéd The One telling him:

"Alot of incidences happen in my life and i compare and realize you are better than most men, thats when i regret arguing too much with you, and if i go around the globe i know i wont find anyone else who comes close, please forgive me, i appreciate that you are very patient with my craziness, i swear all men are shit compared to you and i thank God a thousand times that im with you, i love you and may we never part". 

Ofcourse he replied back telling me he loved me too and I am happy about something.  That lately by bb or on the phone, Ive been hearing declarations of love all along.  He says that he cannot live without me because I am the water to his life without which he will die.  He says that all other women are not worthy in his eyes when he compares them to me.  And he also tells me that his love is crazy and that is why he keeps his feelings under control otherwise I will get sick of his addiction and that I won't be able to handle his extreme emotions.

He would make a perfect husband and wonderful father.  I just wonder if we are meant to be hitched or not?  I truly and deeply hope so.

وكما أن الرزق مكتوب مقدر بأسبابه فكذلك الزواج مكتوب مقدر، وقد كتب لكل من الزوجين أن يكون زوج الآخر بعينه، والله تعالى لا يخفى عليه شيء في الأرض ولا في السماء

Last night I went to sleep thanking God for all that he has given me, for the discretion first but mainly for blessing my life with this man whom I hoping will give me my happily ever after ending.

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My man is currently obsessed with Maryam Zakariae who dances in many of Saeed Shaysteh's video clips.  She is part of his current infatuation with the beauty of Persian women, silly man, lol!

Just look at her pic infront of the billboard.  See, she ain't nothing special.  I look way better than her.  Phew!! [Insert: FWD 2021: Oh my child I wish I could go back in time and stop you from comparing yourself to others.  You are enough, You are good enough.].  

Till we meet again,
Sedeso