More of my mother......

Lately I have noticed how much of my physical features resemble my mother:  the roundness of my face, the chubby cheeks, the belly, the cellulite, the darkened elbows, the hair, and laying on the bed while watching TV.  Ofcourse, this is a natural phenomenon.  And even though for a split of a second, I thought to myself that I do not wish to be unhappy like her as I was growing up,  I remembered that the more we resisted something, the bigger the chances it is bound to happen.  Hence I must remember that yes I do carry alot of my mother's features, more than my father's but its okay because my combination of traits will react and live differently. 

I love my mother.  She is who she is.  She had alot of ups and downs and I hope to God that some blessings come her way soon.

Please God, bring my mother blessings that would brighten up her life.  Please God.  I beg you.

God, I look forward to having babies when the time is right.

Till we meet again,
Sedeso

PS: The One preached to me the night after I threw my last tantrum.  He told me that we should accept everything that happens to us.  But at the same time, we should be positive about things.  He kept repeating 'wish for the best' and I thought for a moment: did he mean marriage?  Was this a hint that he will marry me in due course?  Maybe.  Maybe God will be (Kind) kind enough and give me and my mother what we have been desiring.

For now, I must remind myself that I am blessed and that everything will happen at the right time.  The Greater Divinity is cooking our lives in a way that we may never comprehend because of our narrowed vision.

To a better, brighter, and more beautiful future.  Cheers, clink!!

PPS: Mother just told me that she is considering putting all she owns in my name because she does not trust the younger ones and my brothers may be controlled by their wives.  Even if she marries, the man may try to take all her wealth away.  She believes that I will distribute things fairly once she is gone.  I do not want to think of such a day.  Oh Lord, I wonder what sweetness the future holds.