I am slightly worried about the future because even though there are a few fun events lined up for 2010, my future remains a huge mystery. I will have to be specific and pinpoint my marital status as my number one worry.
And today, whilst waiting to take my overdue accounting midterm, I listened to my mother ranting on and on about how life has been treating her unfairly, not giving her anything that her heart desires. She is still waiting. Funny, because I too am awaiting my chunky blessings to fall from the heavens. This time I didn't get too upset. If anything, I started accepting my life the way it is because as I told my mother: nothing stays the same forever and change is the essence of life. I do realize that as much as we're blessed right now, our situation is bound to change. We are impatient and I carry a trophy for being the Queen of hastiness. I guess we Aries are not known for our patience.
My degree is coming to an end. I sit my final exam on the 8th of July and that's it, I graduated with a masters in Strategic xxx. I felt so lonely walking in university today as I realized this is another milestone in my life and the future is as bleak and mysterious as ever. What are those melancholy feelings I wonder? Has it really been this long since I started this degree back in September 2008?
Writing this, I can sense my life-changing. I am aware there are forces that are moving about and shifting things. I will not swear but I do not remember ever being more aware of my feelings and what is going on. And my baby? I love him now more than ever and am certain of his mutual love and faithfulness.
In many older posts, I always wondered how 2 people can fall in love mutually and equally, be faithful to one another, marry and have a happily ever after ending. Well, with the exception of matrimony, I have found it. My prayers and pleas have been answered and I got what I wanted. Will we ever marry? I would like to say I hope so but I do not know what God has in store for me and how my life broth is being cooked and what blessings/herbs are being and will be added.
I am aware that every time one gets comfortable in life, perils are thrown his way to help him grow and evolve to become his ultimate self. I will not think of the coming perils. Right now, I choose to live in this moment and be thankful for everything that I have.
As my beau pushed my suitcase towards terminal 3, I told him something that I felt: "that these are my happiest days yet because he is in my life".
And finally, I wonder how much more beautiful can this life get?
To a wonderful wondeful life with The One.
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My baby turned 32 yesterday. Until I get a proper gift, here's what I got:
He has issues with age more than I do so he turned around the 32. Is he serious?
Sedeso
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