Day 85 coincided with Tuesday the 14th of December, 15 days before the year ends, and the project too.
Day 85 was a busy busy busy day. Packing took all my time and some of my health for I ended up with extreme backache on the lower left. Myself and boss stayed in the office till 5pm packing and closing and labeling boxes.
As I was about to leave the office, The One called on his way to the airport. Seems he needed something from the computer which I had already shut down. He then neglected it and I insisted in a begging mode that I will switch on the laptop there is no problem with that. I shouldn't have insisted this much but it's okay. He said he was leaving on an official work visit to the GCC.
It wasn't until I went down to the parking and into my car and was about to leave to the house that he called me again asking me to log in to my Gmail and fill out the form for him. I went back up much to my boss's surprise, switched on my laptop, and filled out his parking form while he stayed with me on the line. He made a lot of small talks, maybe because he was feeling awkward. I wasn't though, I was simply trying to keep the sex of the caller a mystery to my boss. He asked me if I needed anything and my rhetorical answer was always no I'm fine.
I don't understand why but I was so happy that he trusted me to do such a thing for him. Maybe this is linked to Agent 009's lack of trust and my having to prove to myself that I am a trustworthy person. Also, this action, to me meant that he had no one else in his life and even if there was then she was probably insignificant and he didn't rely on her and trust her as much as he did with me. Yaay me.
And because I was so exhausted when I reached home, I skipped shimmy shimmy and decided to take an hour-long nap to energize myself.
At 9pm, I met with the group at Maxine's again, and off to the beach we went. I drove in Fati's car so as to keep her company.
And from the little that I saw, I can conclude that Neil is quite the man and Sara is so lucky in love to have a man like him. She is confident in their relationship seeing how easy he was getting along with the girls and she trusted him enough not to be annoyed when he hugged them all.
As we walked back on the beach, I felt something suddenly. Looking at how he spoke about their future and which schools they were gonna take their kids to, then the way they hugged and walked together on the beach made me realize something: love is meant to be exactly like this, mutual and exclusive. The man has to want the woman as much if not more. This is the kind of love I should be aiming for.
Lord, with Neil/Sara on one side and with M's 3abdalla on another side, something in my standards changed. I cannot quite put my finger on it but I felt it. I won't dwell too much on it because it'll probably show up soon.
On day 85, happiness showed me what form love should take. Either my all or nothing at all.
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Sedeso
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