On certain days, life couldn't be more boring and uneventful. On other days though, so many mini-events happen and each is supposed to mean a different thing. Life sure is funny, isn't it? Here it goes:
- My mind cannot stop thinking of my beloved. I somehow want to meet with him face to face and explain to him the reason behind my monthly outbursts. I am neither mad nor rude but a frustrated woman.
- I stopped for Chai before embarking on my AA road trip listening to Run Joey Run over and over again whilst imagining scenarios and wondering if I will ever achieve what my heart truly desires.
- I opted to stay over at M's house instead of the hotel with the Hussy simply because I was worried it was expected from me to pay. I am currently running very short on funds and if it weren't for The One's deposit money I would have definitely suffered. May God bless him for helping me out financially.
- I showed the Hussy what Agent 009's other woman looked like and her immediate reaction was: an obvious man-eater.
- The Hussy S complimented me so much: Next to us you look like a piece of artwork / you are so gracious and tall, how come you're so down-to-earth? People make a big deal out of R Masud but next to you she aint got anything. I am this tiny and I walk with my nose in the air, had I been blessed with your looks only God knows how much more big-headed I would have become / the man whom you will end up with is soooo lucky
- The near-lifting incident haunted me and reminded me that all people of a lesser status want what others have. This is why a person who doesn't lift things has a lot of self-control and is great. Hence I should not judge others.
- Even her relative had me figured out, her comments included: You are full of innocence, your heart is made of gold, you dress sexy not because you wanna be filthy but because it makes you feel good, and you may dance in a nightclub not to attract attention like most girls but because you enjoy it, so lucky is the man who will marry you that I truly hope you end up with a man who deserves you and knows your worth ~ Ameen to that.
- I sat with M's gorgeous sister, who may be sweet and sharp but who does not have depth. It just made me realize that I have so often belittled myself next to others who are actually all superficial if you come to think of it.
- Fate brought me back face to face with the one who tainted my life and buggered off. I do not hate, neither do I care now. I have become indifferent to people who do not matter. And since money is never a good metric for comparison, and keeping all luxuries aside, this one hasn't changed with the exception of veneers and hair plugs. Amazing how some people remain very shallow from the inside. I felt greater, grander, richer, and more accomplished. I sensed my greatness and the looks of awe around me, even from the VIP....... Life sure is funny.
- I was disappointed slightly but not surprised at all that M still leads the same life as before, she hasn't changed much from what I see. I do not want to judge her, I just hope she matures.
I went to sleep very late, wondering what more surprises and twists my future holds. Happiness is still a foreign concept to me. I am very agitated about my current situation with The One and hope that it resolves itself somehow. Dear Lord, give me what my heart truly desires.
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Gorgeous vintage sleeves.
Till we meet again,
Sedeso
PS: It's not fair for me to judge others and label them so from now on, the Hussy is simple S.
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