An Apology

There is something to be added about me: that I behave much nicer to strangers than I do to the people I am closest to.  It's like I am too shy to be nice to them.  I'd rather keep up a cold, unmoving facade. It bugs me alot but I will try to simply be aware of it in vain hope that it shall resolve by itself.  

What surprised me though was my level of awareness.  I was so frustrated and boiling on the inside from my sibling's unawareness of time that we ended up being an hour late to the wedding.  Before this sibling came I was thinking out loud: you might as well be late, being angry and losing it won't get you there any earlier, anger won't solve this issue.  Yet as soon as the sibling rode with me I flipped, shouting out:  stupid stupid stupid.

The moment was too intense that my sibling started crying.  Something demonic took over me and I was fully aware of it but couldn't help myself and stop it.  Really, there was no need for such regular bout of drama.

This incident may have been a norm for me with my occasional outbursts that the closest people to my heart have to endure but the only difference this time is that, I did apologize.

Therefore, on our way back I was very hesitant about apologizing and for a moment decided against it.  But I said to myself: I might as well.  What have I got to lose this time other than my ego?

So I did it.  I apologized to one of the closest people to me and this I believe is evidence that something in me has changed.

Here's to reaching my full potential as a sensitive and caring Human Being whose heart will overflow with love.

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Now here is what's wrong with the bridal stage:

 Orange and yellow lights are ugly.  Bridal chair is too small.

 Golden themes are overrated and not memorable. So is white sometimes.

 Beautiful but the Bridal throne should be the most distinguishable.

 Done in so many weddings and I personally dislike red and gold at weddings.

 Good lighting.  Nice patterns.

 It's okay but the finishing makes it appear tacky.  Sometimes just changing the material used adds a touch of class.

 Interesting idea.  Again material used makes it tacky.  Satin should be a big NO NO.

 Too small.  Could have been nicer had it been a circle and the length increased.

 Good area and table setting and nice big size fits with the theme.  Notice the ugly white satin.

 Beautiful.  Great black starry backrop.  interesting idea the balls.  Perhaps the throne could have been plainer and more color matching.  However, it was totally wrong to use yellow for the flowery stands.

 White curtained backdrop is nice.  Nice on stage but photos may not come out great.  Also another colour may have stood out better than white.

Throne material is so messy.  Nice candelabras but the stage should have been higher covering the back.
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Till we meet again,

Sedeso