So I called him on the second day of silence and as it turns out he is very very angry (what else was I expecting) and hearing my voice brought back many bitter feelings (he has been thinking about my mean words since I uttered them) but he did not mean it when he said let's go our separate ways. He wanted me to taste my own medicine because this was a phrase I used very lightly when I should take it with utter seriousness.
He told me how hurt he was because some of my words were like poison, they cut through his heart and this is what hurt me sooooooooo much. I am a sweet person by nature and it is never my intention to hurt anybody especially the person whom I love with my all.
So an alert bulb went on in that head of mine: I must find a solution to save this relationship. I must break this frustration circle with the monthly bouts of anger.
But how? Should I go and see my therapist or let it be and see how things evolve?
And at the end of the phone call, when I asked if he still loved me, his answer was this: what do you think?
He does still love me otherwise he wouldn't still be with me.
And hope was ignited once again which made me tear up.
Tonight I can sleep well. I am hoping for a brighter future.
________________________________Drapery and living room ideas:
From experience, greyish tones, if not illuminated well can be gloomy to any room.
How I love mixing patterns and colours but very carefully as to avoid tackiness.
Again beautiful carpet. It has a pattern and is in monotones.
Most would think pink and grey are girly bedroom colours but done carefully with the right amount of patterns can make it astounding.
Cannot wait till I start the Interior Design Course.
_____________________________________On day 37, Happiness was in knowing that I have not lost my love forever and that hope is still ignited.
Till we meet again,
Sedeso
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