Ever since I finished my education, I have had a lot more of me-time. So now, whenever I go out I actually put a little more effort in my looks.
Lulu noticed it and said green suits me. I was blessed with very attractive looks. But regardless of what the exterior shows, inside of me is a great restlessness. You see, The One keeps telling me things are alright and that we are fine and that we'll be okay but if that was the case, how come I haven't seen him since that weekend? How come he is too busy for me? How come he barely calls me? How come our telephone conversations have dwindled into a few greetings and words? I realize that all relationships go through rough patches but I do not want to remain the one who keeps putting more effort into this.
We've been together for over a year and it's always me who works harder and puts more effort, the way I see it.
My biggest fear is if he hasn't proposed yet, will he ever want me enough to marry?
So after a somehow fun lunch, where myself and the ladies planned a weekend getaway to another city, I went back home to spend time with the family.
I hate being home in the evenings without having anything useful to occupy my mind because that's when the devil starts playing in it and poisoning it. And once again the restlessness equation comes into action.
Anyways, Sue dreamt that she was distributing my wedding cards and padre was specifically asking her not to forget to invite my high school buddies and teachers. So I texted the dream explanation service.
Apparently, I will receive a reply by text within 24 hours.
I am even more restless and cannot wait for the answer.
Till we meet again,
Sedeso
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