I was hoping that The One would contact me by the end of the day but he hasn't. Then again, he is the one who plays hard to get. I mean remember how in January he didn't call me for 3 whole days until I came up with a stupid excuse and called him.
I deleted him from bbm simply because even though bbm might have been a means for him to contact me, I didn't want him to know about my outings and whereabouts.
I kept telling myself I won't contact him for 10 days. Not until I come back from my B town trip. But, alot can happen from now till then. Miracles can happen. I didn't cry as much as I did when things ended with Agent 009 but then again I could still be in the initial stage of shock. Perhaps none of it has sunk in yet and I am in denial.
But I cannot call this time because he is the one who asked for the separation. He broke it off. It wasn't the usual scenario where I would ask for a separation then retract my words back when I regretted it.
As much as I hate this current situation maybe it's a blessing in disguise.
And if he did not come after me this time, chances are he never will.
Maybe someone else is written in my destiny.
Maybe he is seeing someone else? Who knows. Let's face it, it could be a possibility.
Maybe this is the answer to all my prayers.
Whatever the reason is, I hope some humongous blessing comes out of this and that my matrimonial status is closer than I have ever imagined it to be.
I simply wonder if he misses me at all? That's the least I should expect after having spent 1.5 years with a man.
If it is meant to be, he will come back to me and marry me. And if it's not meant to be then I hope fate has something better in store for me.
Till we meet again,
Sedeso
I have evolved I am sure because this time around this break-up feels different and I am reacting to it differently.
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